Its Saturday, not Sunday yet

Cant really sleep much, guess I'm still me, still think alot... Nothing much gonna happen today =) juz gonna stay at home and study abit for my next week finals, still have 3 papers u know?

So woke up and wrote a very very long email and sent it.. To who u asked? Of coz my beloved Honey lah! I used my very true feeling when i'm writing this Hon, a really pure heart of a Lover. Hope it can reach your heart like it was intended to..

Well, Hon might be abit occupied in today's school trip, there are some kind of exhibition in another town, but Sunday is approaching =) Its been sometime since we had a good conversation together. I hope you'll feel better today.

Well, no matter what i'll do, will still think of u =) Really luv u very very much my Love...

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

Another miserable day

I had a terrible gastric strike yesterday nite... I guess my eating habbit wasnt very good lately, I've totally lost interest in eating already, for the time being i hope. Things wasnt going well when i talk to her this morning around 6.00 a.m. Like usual, we argue a bit she still doesnt feel like talking to me. All i wanted was some1 to reassure me, and got the feeling of people worried bout me. She said she still need more time, more time alone. So i promised her, by giving me a time limit, she promied me that we would definitely talk/skype on Sunday.

I continued my sleep, woke up around 12 p.m. in the afternoon. Then i realise that i couldnt sleep anymore, things juz cant stop coming into my mind. I decided to call rehui up and ask him to accompany me to Low Yat and check on gadgets and drop by KL sentral to get the train tickets. Drove to his house, didnt realise so many people was going too.. CD & Calvin followed my car... Thx guys for making my day, I felt so touched really. Too bad the tickets sold off =(

Reach Low Yat Plaza walk walk around and spent some time and bought a bluetooth handsfree... and to be honest, where ever i go, watever i see and watever i do i cant stop thinking bout Hon. I was suppose to relax my mind and concentrate what i'm suppose to do until Sunday. Keep telling myself need to give her time to relax her mind too. Everything will be better on Sunday and everything will be perfect on the day she return to malaysia(dec 17). It was really a bit too hard for me Hon... Cant stop feeling miserable u know?

But i finally decided to call her later at night to inform her bout the tickets.. I mean i promised to experience this Christmas with her in Singapore. Due to my nature of dragging things, the tickets are sold out... Sigh........ Feel so much beta and really happy that u are willingly to talk to me more like i expected.

I apologising for calling, i know i promised u, but i really feel like telling u bout the tickets.. Well, rest well now my Honey, and enjoy tomorrow's school's trip.. Really wont bother u anymore tomorrow. Luv U very much and willingly to luv u till the day i stop breathing.

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, baby

Another Unnecessary Arguement

I juz called Hon half an hour ago to wake her up for class (Malaysia and Switzerland has a 7 hours different time gap), but things didnt turn out very good again.. She kinda got piss at me for saying the wrg thing. I tried to explain myself but i think she didnt get it and she is piss and dowan to listen me. In the end, the phone call ended with both of us still frustrated. I'm not able to explain myself coz she doesnt wanna listen. I really dont meant it Hon, perhaps i really think too much lately, I really some need time to change like u too...

Most ppl called home their santuary, but to me staying at home for a few weeks already has been driving me crazy, staying at this miserable home alone has gimme nothing but lots of room to think of crazy and useless stuff. Too much has happen in life lately.

The only reason i stayed at home now is because i needed a place to sleep in, a shelter n of coz having my computer and my phone too. Me and Hon used to talk alot on the phone, used to skype on that computer alot too. But things are so different now, Hon no longer wanna sms me and call my phone that much already and she doesnt wanna skype with me either. All she can say is i dowan to talk to u anymore or i dun feel like talking. With these 2 sentences, i feel like i've been cast to death, lifeless, sleeping on that cold bed everyday is the worst feelings i ever felt in my life. Right now i can only pray for the better. For a better tomorrow..

Hon, you've been really grumpy/upset/bad mood.. Your really not like yourself anymore u know? All i can say now is that i really feel really bad for u, thats y i'm alwiz trying my best to talk 2 u now, reassure u and to cheer u up but u are so stubborn, when u say u dowan to talk means u dowan to talk and all i can do is stop talking and endure it.. Can u really see that i'm trying my best here to make u happy? Can u really see that i'm trying my best to be considerate? Can u really see that i'm doing this for 'Us', the both of us. I am not doing this for myself only u know? Do u think that stop talking can really help the 2 of us to get better? I really hope u'll put your anger aside 1st and use your heart to feel how i feel, how we feel, feel what do we need rite now.

Its really just 31 days to go and then when u come back we can hug each other to sleep. U said this yesterday 'Let's do this together, we still have hope' and cant tell u how happy and grateful i felt.. I wont give up this relationship, and i certainly hope u feel the same way.. We still love each other, and believe in each other... And in the end, i believe we will be stronger than b4 =) I really really luv u, really really need u too, and to me our love is really the most important thing in my life now..

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

November, Emo Month

U know what i think about Long Distance Relationship(LDR)?

1. Must appreaciate each other.

2. When there is a will, there is a way.

3. Have faith and trust each other fully.

4. Remind yourself that u 2 were meant to be together.

5. Think of your love ones when u think u r doing something wrong.

6. If you believe in the future, you'll be able to overcome any obstacle.

7. Communication is the only key to understand each other during this time.

8. Keeping intimacy all the time, remind each other of the sweet moments we used to have.

Me and Hon juz cant get back to the way we used to be. Both of us are really having a very difficult time now. Both of us are too sensitive and emotional and easily get angry and upset over small things. We cant put down what has happened n I tried my best to understand her, but i think i didnt do well. I really wish god could tell me what to do now...

No matter how hard i tried to talk things out with Hon, things juz keep going wrong. No matter how hard i try to comfort her, she juz cant really feel it fully right now. No matter how hard i try and apologise, she juz cant get the whole picture of it.

Its another 32 days to go till we can see each other again. Its another 32 days till we can love each other like we nv love b4. Its another 32 days till we can sleep next to each other holding each other so tight like we nv hug b4. (ITS JUST 32 DAYS TO GO!)

Honey, i just want u to know that i really really luv u and i dun mind what is the past. All i want is a future with u right now, a bright future. Who has never made mistakes in life b4 right? Its really the time to forgive and forget now..

Its all about us now, only us. No1 else can help us Hon. I didnt meant to push u like tat, its not even my intention. I juz hope time can replenish everything and make u feel better. I really treasure this relationship and i know that i cant lose u. So no matter what, i'll try my best to make u feel happier.

Really wanted a chance for the both of us... and i really really luv u my Honey.. i really really need u too..

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Again....

I really got no idea what i've done wrong again, with just a short text msg from her saying she wanna think about what i said juz now so we cant talk today and we'll talk tomorrow...

My mood is really bad, how can i wait for 9 hours like this? I really cant wait anymore, this is soo hard and tiring and bcoz of this i cant concentrate doing anything but keep worrying...

Sigh, Hon is doing this again eventhou she promised me not to...

Shes not picking my calls again now...

1 month and 5 days to go

Hon finally called me...

I really cant stop crying when i got her call, i was soooo worried the whole time cant eat n cant sleep. We talked alot on the phone yesterday night... She finally explained to me what had actually happen...

To her she thinks that i took her for granted, which i nv do that at all. I might sound not very appreciating and not really good at using words, I hope she'll understand tat i would do everything for her n I'm really still waiting for u to come 'home'

To her she also thinks that i dun care of her anymore when shes sick and busy. I really do Hon.. its juz that u cant see my facial emotions, i'm really worried to death.. So many things juz came into my mind, I wish I really could go there rite now n hug soo tight and feel your body warmth during this cold winter weather.

I really pity her sometimes, having a boyfren like me with a really bad temper and sarcasm mouth. When i'm overly worried my anger burst without warning.. I promised to become a better person for You to love but i fail to do so. All i can hope now is that u would gimme another chance to mend the wounds and pains i left behind, i promise to learn from experience and become a better lover for us and our future.

I really hope we talk more like we used to, we love each other like we used to, we comfort each other like we used to, we wait for each other like we used to, we manja each other like we used to....

I know i need you very much and I know i wouldnt let u go until the very day i stop breathing, I hope i can hear u say u love me very much too today... Bcoz i really meant it when i say i love u very much u know? Still 1 month and 5 days to go, really cant wait till the day when i have to go to the airport to fetch u=) To me, nothing is more precious compared to our love....

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Farewell My Dear Friend

Its been a long long time since i posted in my blog. I kinda 4get i actually owns 1, kinda neglect it for a while. I made a draft bout my Melacca rave party but haven upload the photos into it, will post it anytime this week.

Woke up in the morning waiting for Hon to reply my calls, actually cant sleep at all, I cant stop looking at my clock wondering why is she still not calling me.. I'm getting really worried and crazy now, i've called her many times no1 answer it n still waiting now... I'm soooo sad now its like i cant even gather enuff strength to breath anymore, i Need her So Much!

Sign in to my Hotmail and read sum mails until i came across 1 named quit from Twintech.. Its from Pauvine! Here is the msg she sent us:

To all lovely guys

It wouldn't be suprised to all of you, expected,right? There are a lot of reasons which i can't to continue again. I'll appreciate the times we spend to together(eating,shopping,fighting............)which cannot buy with money, and knowledge which i gained from Twintech.

Edmund - undestanding,helpful,hardworking(in studies only) and cute (because fat-fat ma,a bit handsome only)

Pei Rou - leadership espirit, helpful and sweet girl (always busy with appointment but this sem seems less so can spend some times with us)

Hie Ching - lovely siau cha boo (always take short cut but sometimes cannot short cut ooh)

Eng Lian - sleepy and busy boy (need to spend sometimes in studies,be serious and sensible, you can, right?)

Kai Yun - emotion girl (appreciate what you are today, don't blame this and that.Poor and rich just a "$" sign only,study hard and work hard,you surely can success. I'll keep the "secret" between you and me)

Yan Ching - timid and sweet girl(be brave so that nobody will bully you,talk more and nobody will laugh at you)

Dominic - love your body and take care(you'll be the best fighter and i'll pray for you)

Vincent - busy and "man" boy (try your best in Twintech even though you don't like.You are smart in studies actually,don't disapointed your parent,show them actually you can).

Ai Yii - cute, lovely crazy girl(it's happy to talk to you, always made us laugh like "orang gila, don't mind to be the crown)

Choon Ming - hardworking and 'cool' boy(is the parent's "good boy",almost catch up with the groups,keep it up)

I am not sure what actually happen but now i'm really speechless, another dear friend of us has quit the course.... Being the oldest 1 in the class and the one of the most talketive 1, she never fail to entertain us =) and alwiz represent our class to voice out our opinions. No matter what is it, we will alwiz remember we once had a very nice friend.