Unbreakable

Hello people!

Its really been a while since i blogged btw... This time im really NOT going to promise that i'll blog more often because i notice im really breaking it all the time =(

Ive been really busy lately working, oh yeah, many people didnt know that Ive been working at Secret Recipe for 8 hours a day for 10 days already. Prooooud of me eh?

At first i applied for the kitchen position, but they already have enough people in the kitchen, so i got an offer as a waiter. Having nothing to do at the moment, and stop myself from being killed by boredom, and also my mum's naggyness, i accepted it without any hesitation.

The Life as a Waiter aint an easy job u know? Bloody attitude customers i met everyday, being scolded for faults that u didnt do and still have to say sorry, it sux really. My manager's motto is 'Customers are always right', bloody yeah rite?!

So next time please treat your waiters/waitresses with more respect please!

The people in Secret Recipe has always been great to me, being so helpful in every way i needed it, eventhou its just merely 8 staff working there, they really gave me a very good first time working experience there, they taught me the importance of 'teamworking' to run a cafe.

The Kitchen, The Barrista, The Floor work together to make the cafe run smoothly... I really enjoyed working there =)

They say 'one thing leads to another' !

and tomorrow is my last day because Im offcially hired by Swiss Garden KL to work in their pastry kitchen.

Wanting to work in a kitchen was always my dream, I felt really so blessed to be given this opportunity. First i have no education in culinary and second i have 'zero working experience' in the kitchen, its a miracle that they accepted my application!

Learning the techniques to make 'hotel standard' pastries. I'll be making cakes and buns in no time.

Life just couldnt get better than this =)

'If that thing dont kill me, it only makes me stronger', says Kanya West in his song 'Stronger'

Out of all these hard times, I've learnt one thing, to become stronger, not just to become stronger, but to become unbreakable, and YES I am 'Unbrekable' now!


Once again, i'll try to blog more often! Try but not promise, gotta get some sleep, ciao!

If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune,
Some people live just for the fame,
Some people live for the power, yeah,
Some people live just to play the game,
Some people think that the physical things,
Define what's within,
And I've been there before,
But that life's a bore,
So full of the superficial.

By the time u finish reading the first part, the lyrics should sound familiar already, recently i fell in love with this really wonderful song 'If I Ain't Got You' by Alicia Keys and i can just listen to it for the whole day.

I was once a guy who believes that money rules everything. I was taught that everything including human have a price. By the look for our world now, Yes, Money still rule almost everything.

As for fame and power, I always wanted to be 'more' famous, to know more people so more people could know me.

Life itself was a Game to me, more like a game of chest. We are like front line, the pawns who only strive to move forward. Moving each step forward, and 'trying' to make a better way for someone else behind, only to find ourselves doomed first.

As for physical, most people can only see whats on the outside not on the inside. When i was young i tasted a type of fruit that looks like this:

Its so ugly on the outside, but taste so good on the inside. Why are we always so attracted to something attractive? This world is weird huh?

But Life's getting bored each day, now still holding to my own believes, I finally see a new hope, finally realized, cause i've been there before too,

Trust me...

'Everything really dont mean a thing if we couldn't share it with someone else'

Have you ever woke up early in the morning and feel that the air was so different today? or

Have you ever felt that ice water actually taste so much sweeter? or

Have you ever felt that this life was sooo made for you? or

Have you ever cant wait to meet this person? or

Have you ever drive in your car and can't stop thinking bout another person? or

Have you ever obsessively talks about another person when you are hanging out with your friends? or

Have you ever cant stop staring at somebody's picture? or

Have you ever felt in Love?

Oh no...
I'm in Love with a girl, again....

Being a Man

Due to my laziness of blogging for such a long time, i finally decide i should take the 'effort' to post some really sweet, touching article(like this newest one) like i used to do, in one reason, to make the world realize and hoping that some of these words could change someone's heart...

For my comeback, i present this very touching article of mother and son, 'Being a Man'


I am absolutely convinced that male behavior and thought processes begin th instant the X meets the Y chromosome. How else to explain giving birth to a fully formed, bona fide guy?

Our daughter, Annie, emerged into the world feather-soft, sweet smiling and light as a kitten. Her brother, Sam, on the other hand, came out raging and struggling . When I lifted his muscular body for the first time, it felt like i was picking up a bulldog. Even his newborn aroma had a husky quality. And what and enthusiastic appetite! No doubt about it, we had a son.

As Sam grew, so did his instinctive maleness - using Barbies as weapons of aggression, finding delight in all things gross and disgusting, hiding his tears when a beloved pet died. Skinned knees and elbows were barely acknowledged with momentary winces, and my maternal fussing was dismissed with a mildly annoyed, "I'm fine, Mom!" Then he was off again at the speed of tennis shoes. Eventually, i figured out how he wanted to be treated - like a boy.

But i soon discovered more aspects to his emerging masculinity than just toughness and machismo. He was protective of animals, solicitously attentive toward little girls, and quietly perceptive of pain or sadness in people who mattered to him. The first time he grabbed my arm at a crosswalk with an urgent warning about fast-moving cars, I was impressed by his manly assumption of responsibility for a lady's safety. He was in kindergarten at the time.

One hectic fall day when my husband was out of town, i decided to take the kids to our favourite family restaurant. Just as we were about to pull out of the driveway, seven-year-old Sam suddenly unfastened his seat belt and said, "wait a minute, Mom! I have to get something." Annie and i grew impatient with hunger while he searched for his GameBoy, Legos, Pokemon cards or whatever it was he couldnt last the evening without. He finally returned, pocket bulging, and we were on our way.

"So what did you decide to bring?" I asked at a stoplight.

"Well..." He replied with a measured words, " I went back to get my wallet because i want to take you girls out to dinner." His voice had a hopeful inflection, the kind of laying-his-heart-on-the-line sincerity i hadnt heard from a young man since high school.

I was stunned. What prompted this? His offer was sweetly touching, but i knew that such an act of chivalry would wipe out his entire summer's worth of saved allowance. My first instinct was to kindly decline, insisting that he keep his hard-earned money for something he wanted for himself.

But a strong force of guidance stopped me short, and a voice much wiser than my own urged me no to reject his loving offer. He wants to be a man... let him.

I looked back at my son's earnest face and saw that what he truly desired more than toys or candy was to be the provider, just like his dad and to take care of his women. The sudden rush of love i felt for him was so powerful I thought I would burst.

"Oh, Sam..." I stammered. "Thank you! I'd love for you to take us to dinner." He beamed with pleasure, and I found myself floating on a cloud when the light turned green.

From that moment on, the evening was infused with enchantment. I couldnt have wished for a more charming escort than this little man with a missing front tooth. When he leafed through the bills in his wallet (mostly ones) and magnanimously announced, "I want to leave a nice, big tip for the waitress," I could barely contain my pride. The magic remained even when he spilled his water, got in a loud argument with his big sister - and picked up the check, looking horrified. (I discreetly slipped a ten-dollar bill to him under the table, much to his relief.)

No dinner could ever have been appreciated more... but i was concerned by his silence and somber expression on the drive home. Did he regret the generous impulse that bankrupted him? I was strongly tempted to reimburse him for the tab, but thought better of it. Maybe I could find some pay chores at home to get him out of the red, while leaving his dignity intact.

"Mom... " he said solemnly as he slid out of the car. "I'm going to need a really good job when i grow up."

I couldnt help but smiling. In spite of his worries about the daunting responsibilities in his future, he was willing to accept the challenge.

"You know," I replied, "There's more to being a man than just earning money. It takes alot of love, and you already have plenty of that to give!"

I squeezed him with a long enveloping hug, and this time he returned it instead of squirming away.

Jean Harper

'Bloggerstinct'

No mood to blog lah really...

As u all can see, never update my blog for the past few months.

Well, this is another attempt to bring back my 'bloggerstinct'..

Will be updating very soon...

I promised...

(The whole color of my blog's layout will soon changed back to black)

Reconcile

Over the past few months, i hadn't really been updating my blog a lot... A lot of people actually asked, why u stop blogging? Why you dont post anything anymore? Do u remember you once own a blog?

Yes, i still have a blog and it is still very important to me! This blog has became an emotional storage to me, i write all my 'feel bad' stuff here to just to reassure myself. To be honest, it works most of the time.

I've discover that i only write my blog when i have emotional problems. It shouldn't be this way, not like this anymore.

I've been asking myself, what else do i need in my life now..

My heart always gave me this answer...

''You have everything''

Better in Time

I dont have to say much bout this, every single word in the song represents my emotional feelings right now at this moment, I'm so glad Leona Lewis sang this song, it would be that this song was really made for me.. Enjoy =)

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going, Coming
Thought I heard a knock, Whose there, Noone
Thinking that, I deserve it
Now I have realized
That I really didn't know

If you didn't notice
You mean everything, quickly I'm learning
To love again, all I know is
I'm be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah, It'll All get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh, It'll all get better in time

I couldnt turned on the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling

If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it hurt my feelings
But that's the past, i believe it
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything, quickly i'm learning
Oh turn up again, All I know is
I'm be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oh yeah, It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too
Oh, It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
This time I let you go so I can be free
And Live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oh, It'll all get better in time
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too yes I do
It'll all get better in time

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeah
Oh oh, It'll all get better in time
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too
Oh, It'll all get better....