God, juz hope You'll answer me this Once..

Days are getting more fucked up.... I msned Hon yesterday, we tried to do video and voice chat, it was block by the hostel system.... and u know wat, she told me that the hostel connection dun allow them to do that..... This is real bad, to think of it, she went to swiss for 4 years, there are only 1 semester break at the end of every 6 months n this is the only time we could meet. The most we could meet is only twice a year, this is already so not enuff and we can't do any video or voice chat now?!?! How on earth m i really gonna survive this 4 years like this?

This is like the only cheapest n convenient way to communicate for students like us, I think these schools should enable this kind of service for international students as the call charges is really devastaing. I juz dun understand why things have to turn out this way, who can I blame? Who can I complaint it to? I know i can't ask help from God, i know i didn't really do anything much for Him before, but i juz need some simple guidance from him....

Life is getting tougher each day, bad things juz keep coming this way....
1. i'm still in my fucked up course which i dun like since i was in the first year,
2. my Hon left for switzerland for studies and i'm feeling all alone now,
3. i can't afford to go to europe to visit her,
4. i have a lots n lots of problems with my family lately making me more n more rebellious
5. i dun really haven any business or assets, which means i still have to rely on my parents,
6. i might get depression n die b4 this 4 years really end,
7. Devil within me is really overtaking me, turn me to a very cold blooded creature capable of doing harmful things...

There r juz too many things keep running in my mind... I really need guidance from 'You', plz answer me n tell me wat to do plz.....

Meaning in Life

Received a call from Hon on 3:05 p.m., she finally reach Bluche(Located five minutes away by car from the heart of Crans-Montana). Les Roches is a school of hotel management and has a very very big campus in some 'ulu' place somewhere in switzerland.

If your interested, check this link for more information.
http://www.lesroches.edu/hotel-school/

At least i could say i'm happy that she arrived there safe, life is going 2 be quite hard for us beginning now where she would spend another 4 years there and i will have to wait for her to come back n yet i'm still stuck here with this fucking lame bullshit course which i'm not even intested! This is Life, continue to live and earn money to die, at least i have a new meaning in Life now... to wait for her 2 finish her course or u could say wait for her to return...

Farewell My Honey =(

Today is July 21, 2007. I've decided to start my new blog today and constantly update it throughout the year, I think that blogging enables my Honey to know what i'm up to in Malaysia so she would not worry bout me too much. Btw, she board the plane to Switzerland on 11:15 p.m. N i'm still waiting for her sms... Alwiz Love ya.
-Baby-