Stop and Stare!

I love this song so much now, its call Stop and Stare by One Republic, Listening to it like crazy everyday...

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal...
for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

(changed the sound of my soul)

No reason

For no reason i'm feeling very moody these few days, every tomorrow seems to be very boring to me, I prefer to not go out and stay at home to rot.. Perhaps going to class these few days have make me exhausted, for such a long time never have the habit to wake up early in the morning to go class, really miss the holidays =( I'm felt so powerless and lifeless everyday now.

Before i'm really adapt back to the life now, sigh... here comes Chinese New Year again, the festival of noisy lion dances and firecrakers that cloud the skies, together with those very noisy gamblers. In my own words, I too can call it the 'Festival of Sound Pollution'.

Been playing with my guitar these few days too. Yes, the one that i didnt touch for a damn long time. I have some 灵感 these few days, which encourages me to write music, i wrote some lyrics but cant really get the right music for it =( Hope i'm able to come out with something this time.

One last thing, Thank God for showing me the right track again. I know its up to me now...

Shocking Friday

Last week was my first week of class...

Was enjoying hanging out with my friends, its a been a long time doing crazy stuff with them, really miss them. Just when i thought everything was okay, so we went to Mardigras for clubbing on Friday last week. Everything was okay =) Almost everyone was there, talking 'cocks' and chilling out, we even met 2 more girls, sweeeet!

Until one of the girl's dad called, its urgent and she really have to go. So i offer myself to give her a ride back. This is when the situation a good guy being treated bad for no reason. I reach her house and her dad was angry at me for no reason, I said to him softly and politely 我只负债送你女儿回家, 什么都没做. I have no intention of talking bad bout her dad. But in the end i got hurt and i drove away. I have no idea of what really happen, i was so innocent looking at him, why was he like that?!

Well, i'm okay already now... Living to every breath i could still inhale, walking every tomorrow's steps slowly, I felt better for not blaming him =)

(changed the sound of my soul)

First week of School

Well, most people including me has already started class. Have 2 wake up early in the morning get ready for class and then drive on the freaking jams. Man! this is tiring but to be honest, after 2 months of holidays, i realy miss the hustle and bustle of city life =)

Even though i only have 4 subjects in this this sem but i shud be more busy now, bcoz more labs and assignments, i even have a mini practical now. The first week in class wasnt quite special though, still seeing those familiar faces i've been seeing for the past few sems, really nothing special.....

Everyone is back from their hometown now, that 'Daddy' is back too =) we've been hanging out like we used to. Going out having fun, Life is just great at its beginning. Nothing is better than spending all your time doing nothing with those useless 'buthers'.

Tomorow is Friday already, a week has past 'just like that', and its another weekend, Lets go PARTY!

Standing Firm

Well, the blog was dead for some time already, i guess its time for some update again...

Yesterday was the countdown of a New Year. Everyone was eagerly counting every last hour, every last minute and every last second of 2007, then 'boom' here comes the fireworks to welcoming a New Year 2008.

Australia's 2008 Fireworks, its really breathtaking

To many people, a whole new year means a whole new lots of new resolution again. Arh, i still remember my last year's resolution, i guess only less than half of it actually succeeded. But every year there is alwiz an important lesson to learn.

This year, I've learned to Stand Firm.

Alot has happened in 2007. From family problems to friendship problems to relationship problems. Just when i thought nothing could be worse than this, i was wrong... My own negativity has fully consumed me. Eventhou there were alot of ppl who are trying to help me all the time, indirectly i was too stubborn and ignore them.

Till almost the end of 2007, i finally lost something that I think is very precious to me in my Life. I was pushed to a whole new level of growth. I muz admit it, its really painful.. My eyes were finally open, now i could see more than i can usually see.

Take a proper look in every problem, there is alwiz a way out u know? All we need to do is Stand Firm! Dont move and ask yourself what do you want?

Noone know ourselves better than ourselves, we know what we want. So, why so easily let other people's words or thoughts influence you?

I finally know, when i really want something, i really need to work hard, afterall we are how we work...

You and I know that we cant control what other people wanna do to us, so let them do whatever they want, think whatever they want, talk whatever how they want. The only thing we can do is be a better person ourselves.

I tried hard, but i guess i could try harder =)

(Changed the sound of my soul)