Getting stronger in Life, I've grown

Since the breakup, Me and Ming Fen nv talk to each other for a week already, well i promised her that i wouldnt disturb her till its almost the time for her to come back.. But i heard nothing from her for such a long time, its somehow bothering me. To many people they think its only a week, but to me a week is really difficult to go thru.. Juz wanna let her know that i still care for her very much. Its 19 days till her homecoming, I hope that i'm still able to fetch her that day, I'll be waiting in Malaysia..

I used to dun appreciate it when she calls or sms me, after reading the book For Men Only, I understand that women call bcoz they care and they are worried, I think most men doesnt understand this, I was once a man who dun understand a thing bout a women, I really wish i read the book earlier =( Human is really the stupidest creature, they only know how precious is it until they really lost it, like me, i've lost everything now and need to start all over again. Sigh.. I promised myself that next time i try my best to become a better lover.

I realised that i've been staying at home alot now, bought so many books to read on how to improve myself, try to understand women properly, i even read horoscope(cant imagine a man doing that right?)!

Cooking is my passion, so I started cooking alot after i read the Rich Dad book, cooking gives me the understanding and knowledge of skills, timing and ingredients in food. That book simply ignite my will and make me understand if i want a career in the F&B line, I simply need to start working on it now, I finally starting to understand that i need to get stronger in Life, why is everyone moving except me? I hope i'm not too slow..

Robert definition of Focus in the book:

F = Focus
O = On
C = Current
U = Until
S = Successful

Since the breakup, it thought me alot of new things, makes me realise that my priorities in lfe. I need to become stronger and provide both emotional and financial security to the 1 I loved. Really thx to this breakup, I've grown

I need to go to the gym now, Will update the blog next time when i'm more free.

(added a new chat box into my blog too, feel free to type anything in there alrite?)

Horoscope

I got stucked the whole day yesterday at home online and chatting. Been thinking alot lately, and i finally came out with a conclusion after the whole day. Since the beginning i already know wat I wanted, already know what shud i do, but i wonder at the same time why are there so many other thoughts that are trying to influence me.. Well, ppl's words can have such a great impact, muz really be confident to myself till the very end, I still believe we live on to watch our own endings, not by listening to others. I've made up my mind.

I usually dun believe in horoscope, but yet i still decided to do some reading on it. I simply muz know what actually happen between us, to me i think a problem shud be solve if not its forever a problem, next time still a problem. Look at the horoscopic view of Aries with Gemini; Gemini with Aries.

Aries with Gemini:
Gemini individual is restless, has numerous ideas and plenty of nervous energy. In a sense, this is fine. However, carried to extremes, you both tend to scatter your forces. The key is to be selective, to choose the best. The Gemini is Mercury and your significator is Mars. Gemini tends to give you a sense of direction, but also to tire you. This is because you find yourself moving, visiting, entertaining, being entertained. You tend to try to be every place at once when tied up with the typical Gemini native. Gemini makes you want to learn, to experiment, to report, whether that reporting be in the from of notes and eventually a story or article.
Gemini gets you going - sometimes to the point of starting arguments. You can argue with Gemini, and Gemini can make you tired, but, Aries, you are also intellectually stimulated ... and this is no small matter.

With Gemini, you can expect a plentiful supply of change, travel and variety. There is excitement generated and muck activity. If your forces are properly channeled, this combination could be a profitable, satisfying one.

Gemini with Aries:
Aries individuals affect that section of the Gemini chart related to hopes, wishes, and friendship. You are attracted to Aries. The attraction can grow into Love. Listen, Gemini: you might start out playing games with the Fire sign, Aries. But don't play with fire if you are not prepared to get burned. The relationship here can be favorable, if you are prepared for the consequences. Those consequences include a lasting relationship, physical attraction, a liking of hopes and desires.

Many of your friends are Aries native. Together, Aries and Gemini create adventure, travel opportunities. Your creative urges are accented. You love change, adventure, and travel. With Aries you could find the perfect companion or mate. But you both tend to tire each other. Realize, Gemini that Aries does like to lead the way. And you have some ideas of and you don't take your own -you tend to be experienced and you don't take kindly to regimentation.

You have a lot to learn from Aries. But in the process, you could be rubbed the wrong way. Expect a fascinating relationship but the road is not smooth. You will have to arrive at an understanding. Otherwise, much of your energy will be spent in arguing, in conflict.
Generally, Aries is favorable for you. Your interests are heightened. You read. You write. You express opinions. You travel. Very exciting if you first decide that Aries is going to be the boss, no matter what!

The Mars of Aries and your Mercury ruler blend to produce excitement, travel, a tendency to argue but a basic attraction, which makes it a pleasure to reconcile. Aries may force you to get down to business where ideas are concerned. If you don't mind being led. Eventually Aries could be instrumental in aiding you toward goals, toward fulfillment of desires.

(sources are from http://kamalkapoor.com/)

Most of the things happen is quite true according to what i've experienced, shud really read it earlier and access the situation next time!

I'm actually in a rush now but nvm, will update the blog very soon again =) take care everyone

6 days later

Yesterday was my last paper, i felt so relieved now. Looking at my calender, i didnt realise that its already 6 days after the breakup. I could still remember that night like it just happened yesterday. This week is really disastrous, so much happened lately, or i could say everything happen during this time. I was facing 2 life challenges together, my breakup and my finals, this is my first time doing breakup during my finals, but thank God it made me stronger, I think that is wat God was trying to do, No pain really no Gain..

Mum called me during that afternoon, she asked me whether i'm okay and she asked me if i wanted go back home during this period. She understand that its hard to wait but i rejected her offer, because i think going home doesnt change anything. I told her tat i still have some unfinished business in KL, I'm not bringing it to anywhere until i get a confirmation, an answer, and the only thing i could do now is Wait. I promised her that i'll find something to do during this holidays, I wont rot at home.

Finals over, Wat else can we do? Have fun lah of coz and enjoy the holidays while i still can! Was invited to spent the nite with my coursemates. We had dinner first, then watch a movie, and go to the karaoke =)

We had dinner at T.G.I Fridays in 1U. This place was used to be our(Me and Ming Fen) favourite, its still mine of coz. As usual, I ordered a glass of Lemonade, every sip of it brings back the old memories. I still remember the very first time we had dinner here, it was a great one, the only problem was there was this black guy, he was a waiter there and keeps checking out my girlfriend, it really pisses me off and I cant do anything bout it. I wonder whether do we still have the chance to go here again, together..

A memorable glass of Lemonade that we both like

Me and my coursemates, there are actually more but unfortunately our table couldnt fit all

Oh yeah! I bought a book from MPH, For men only by Shaunti and Jeff Feldhahn.

For men only!

Shaunti is the author of the bestselling for women only, a book to understand men. As for men only, is a book to understand women. U know stuff like when a women said no but actually they dun mean it, and stuff like what is always in their minds, why do they like to mentioned about the past, and stuff like why are they alwiz so worried about every little thing, its all covered in this book. Time to think like a women and understand women! I know i'm not an understanding boyfriend, that is why i'm trying my best to change =) I too wish everything best for my gal, who would wanna hurt their love ones right? I hope this book helps =)

Well, I've been very long winded already, i think its time to stop.. To people who are still in Love, Love your Love Ones like U nv Love b4 alrite? Its really hard for 2 person to actually fell for each other. Treasure every moment together!

(I've added a new section of the songs that i'm listening to now)

Wait...

Dominic stopped studying in my Uni due to some difficulties he is facing now. Really pity him.. His a nice guy with a warm heart but a terrible health.. Its been a while since i saw him, so me and Yee Leng decided to hang out today with Dom in MidValley.

So I Met up with Dominic and Yee Leng in MidValley 2day... but later joined in by Rachel, Chi Fu and his brother, Fu Hao... I tell u Chi Fu's brother is a professional in Long Distance Relationship(LDR). When i hear his story i was so dem amazed because he is still in a LDR with his galfren for few years already! Shocking! Why ppl can do it and I cant? Gotta get some advise from the pros...

After some talk, he opened my mind to alot of things. He tells me what is my current situation and suggest how shud i improve it.. N thx to Dominic's quote 'Think out of the Box', although its abit lame. I really felt so much better day by day. Everyone is so positive except me, what a shame really..

Thx to them that i've finally made up my mind, I decided that i shud be in my improvement phase now. I'm like a regular guy, waiting is not gonna be an easy thing. So shud start getting myself occupied now. Think out of the box! LoL! Dominic, u suck really...

Tomorrow is my last paper already, then my holidays gonna start next week till next year's January. I really have alot alot of time to do alot of stuff while waiting for Ming Fen to come back and have a proper talk. Still 3 weeks + to go.. Lets really only talk when u come back alrite? Take care and enjoy the last few weeks in Swiss.

To those who stayed with me all the time when i'm down, really thx..

Another great piece of advise

My cousin, Pauline, offered me to stay at her place so i wouldnt have to stay in that lonely home today. Staying there really gives me alot of room to think of all the unnecessary and negative stuff especially if i'm alone at night, Me and Ming Fen actually spent alot of time together in that house, it still leaves memories.. But i believe time will heal, but of coz it will take some time.

My cousin, she talked to me, which really makes me feel so much better =) Really thx.... She said how can u say you guys are serious but actually such small matters could make u 2 ended up like this. I mean Me and Ming Fen did talk bout our futures, bout us getting married and having kids and living in the same house. I promised her that i would buy her a dog when she finished her studies and stayed with me in 1 house too...

My cousin, she simply answer me this, u guys were serious in the relationship thats why u both talked bout the future, i'm very glad.. but do understand that u 2 are still very young, things happen unexpectedly, both of u dun really ready to commit yet.. Juz a few arguements both of u already on the edge of breaking up, with Ming Fen loving me less than b4 and losing confidence in me, while I was getting more angry and angry each day of her treating me cold and I would call her so many times a day like crazy . Both of us are still very childish. I can finally see that both of us are really not so ready into a serious relationship like we used to promised each other.

This is my blog, I used it to express my own personal feelings, u can choose to read it or ignore, i wouldnt force u too either. Dont say i wrote it because of who who who. I wrote it because i wanted to okay? I have the freedom and rights to do so, furthermore i agree to the terms and condition offered by Blogger.com, if your not happy bout it, try to sue me or report to blogger.com. Dun talk like u know alot bout everyone, if your so good in a relationship you'll be in love now and taking effort in it with your special one not talk bout other ppl's stuff. If u ppl are really so free, try and find other things to talk okay? Its rude to judge from a third person view, because u ppl know nothing bout this relationship... I apologise if it did offended u... I'm juz being honest =)

But if Ming Fen is still reading this, hope to tell u that it is really harsh on making such selfish decision that day. Apologising is all i could do now, that is why i hope we could talk properly during December, face to face.. Both of us shud put this aside first and only talk on December. I know that u wouldnt wanna talk to me yet so I promised u that i would leave alone right now. I will still write on my blog, whether u wanna read it or not its really up to u... Well, I'll call u when its about time for u to come back Home, study hard at the moment and take care of yourself coz its really cold during winter.

Aftermath of a break-up

Well, yesterday was having a hard time.. Cant really sleep and eat at all.. And i Had Ocular Visual Science(OVS) paper, i think i didnt really do well in it too, sigh..... =(

After mum and few calls from friend, i really felt so much better now. I had the whole day to think yesterday and i finally know what to do already. I simply must Move On, that is the only thing i could do right now...

Wait till Ming Fen come back on Dec 17, we'll talk bout it more during that time. By facing each other when u talk, u are more able to evaluate personal emotions and feelings toward each other. Simply means that we can understand each other better during face to face talking.

Lets juz say we have to put our relationship aside first, my finals is this week, and her finals shud be coming in 3 weeks. Well, time is running out, gotta study now =)

Thx to everyone who put effort to talk to me and reassure me, i cant tell u how grateful i am really..

First day of Alone

Today is the first day of being alone.. I no longer have Hon around me anymore. No more hope on calls or sms from her anymore.. We are gonna stay away from each other a while now. Alot has happen lately. Both of us really need a time out actually.

I know this is hard, but I really have to do it, gather my rusted courage from deep inside me, and be back who I was used to be when i didnt have her. Things that happen really leaves scars.. I know i cant pretend i nv have her b4, but i will tell myself i no longer have her anymore. I have to understand that no1 even God never promise us that life is not difficult..

We promised to see each other when she arrived in KLIA on dec 17.. I hope we will be able to talk to each other during that time. If things go well again, maybe our cherry blossoms will bloom again. Who knows what God is planning right?

I hope through this break up, we are able to channel all our thoughts to what is important to us now. I also hope that we are able to gain more experience and be a better lover next time. If there is a slight chance of recovery, I'm sure that I wont give up.. I dun really wanna do this actually but this is the best for the moment.

With all my prayers to our Beloved God, I really hope for the best during dec. Thank God for everything so far...

Its over already

The time is 1:44 a.m. right now.. I'm feeling really down.. Me and Hon finally broke up.. We started at 3rd of May and it ended at 19th of November.

Although the time we are together was very short, those time were the most precious moments we had together. Playing, Laughing, Irritating, Harassing, Cuddling, i cant really list out all the happy things that we do together.. I really enjoyed those moments.. Those were the most precious moments in my life..

But i guess good things dun last forever.. My dream of being forever with her was finally broken. What everyone said was true, There are no everlasting Love.. To those people that put such high hopes on our future, I would wanna apologise to u all.

We are not able to last for another 27 days where she was coming back for her internship. But i promised her, we will see each other during that time, i will still go to the airport and fetch her. I really hope things would be better that time.

I should not be saying this anymore, but I really still love her very much.. I really really still love u very much Honey.

Its Sunday already

Woke up quite early again.. I really cant sleep well these few weeks.. In a result, i wrote a very long email and sent to Honey again..

Yea, if u guys remember, Hon did promised that we would talk today. Yes, its the Sunday i've been so looking forward to.

Hon, she was supposed to go to a school trip yesterday but she didnt, I really dunno wats wrg again.. When she woke up, she dropped me a msg in Skype. Thank God for giving me this chance when I decided to drop by my computer to check something, i saw her msg, I felt really relieved, i mean i didnt really expect us to be able to talk/msg on Saturday. I really miss her and i tell u the thought of needed to wait for a whole day without her news is enuff to drive me crazy. I can tell u, a day without her is no longer possible. I'm juz so addicted and obssessed.

So we talked, skyped a bit yesterday.. But it was not a very good conversation. I think both of us really cant talk like we used to talk anymore, i've been wondering will we ever go back to that stage anymore. She still doesnt feel like talking to me yet. Most of the time, we juz stoned and look at each other through our webcams. Its sweet, I still like to stared at that innocent face of her. But by the look of this, if the both of us doesnt wanna take more effort in this, I already know what will happen in the future.

Maybe i've been expecting too much from her.. Ming Fen, my Honey is like rest of the girl on this planet. Like most girls, they want all the attention they can have from their boyfriends. If my Honey is still in Malaysia, I would spent every morning and every night with her, the first person i wanted to see when i wake and the last person to see when i'm going to sleep. Thats what we do when she was still here, we would stick on to each other like Honeys, never really unglue each other b4. I miss those days..

When she went to Switzerland, we have distance and time gap that is spoiling us. Distance, we cant see each other like we used, cant really understand our body languages anymore. 7 hours of Time gap now, when its my time to go sleep, she juz finished class, the time we talked is getting less and less each day. Thats y eventhou i'm tired everyday, I'm still happy to talk to her in Skype or have a phone call with her later in the midnight. Is juz that she cant see how happy i m when i'm alwiz with that tired tone(sleeping tone). I also promised her that from next year onwards, I'll save money and go to Swiss at least once every year so i'm able to see her 3 times a year, 2 times is when she come back during school holidays. 3 compared to 2 makes a lot of difference.. I hope u understand Hon, with LDR, i cant be there for u like i used to, i cant be there everytime u want me to, but i'm alwiz trying my best u know?

Due to the time gap, more problems occur too.. When i'm out with my friends, she wanted to talk and i cant. And when i wanted to talk, shes still sleeping or in class.. 7 hours of time gap in a LDR is really not easy, but thats why i promised to stay at home more often now. This is the effort i made, I have to tell myself that I have a girlfriend in Swiss, and i'm willing to stay and talk more because she needed it and i needed it too even if she doesnt force me. This is the commitment i've made. I'm not regretting it too. I really pray this 4 years will be over, and trust me if we really have faith, this 4 years is nothing compared to the 20 years i've lived. My first time going to school was when i'm 5 years old. Even its 15 years ago, i still remember it. So the after 4 years from now, it will be over very soon provided we have faith in each other.

I'm really willing to do this and whether u believe or not, I'm still a healthy person, U nv force me to stay at home more.. Its what my instinct tells me to do, yea 'Instincts', if u really didnt notice it, after the quote u left, I finally understand this is my 'instincts' since the beginning. But i think its too late now, things might not go back to the way it was used to be. I juz pray that you can talk to me more now, or at least get better yourself. Juz 28 days to go..

Lets talk more when u wake up afterward, its our Sunday today =)

I really still Love u very much Honey and having u is the best treasure I could find in my Life.

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

Its Saturday, not Sunday yet

Cant really sleep much, guess I'm still me, still think alot... Nothing much gonna happen today =) juz gonna stay at home and study abit for my next week finals, still have 3 papers u know?

So woke up and wrote a very very long email and sent it.. To who u asked? Of coz my beloved Honey lah! I used my very true feeling when i'm writing this Hon, a really pure heart of a Lover. Hope it can reach your heart like it was intended to..

Well, Hon might be abit occupied in today's school trip, there are some kind of exhibition in another town, but Sunday is approaching =) Its been sometime since we had a good conversation together. I hope you'll feel better today.

Well, no matter what i'll do, will still think of u =) Really luv u very very much my Love...

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

Another miserable day

I had a terrible gastric strike yesterday nite... I guess my eating habbit wasnt very good lately, I've totally lost interest in eating already, for the time being i hope. Things wasnt going well when i talk to her this morning around 6.00 a.m. Like usual, we argue a bit she still doesnt feel like talking to me. All i wanted was some1 to reassure me, and got the feeling of people worried bout me. She said she still need more time, more time alone. So i promised her, by giving me a time limit, she promied me that we would definitely talk/skype on Sunday.

I continued my sleep, woke up around 12 p.m. in the afternoon. Then i realise that i couldnt sleep anymore, things juz cant stop coming into my mind. I decided to call rehui up and ask him to accompany me to Low Yat and check on gadgets and drop by KL sentral to get the train tickets. Drove to his house, didnt realise so many people was going too.. CD & Calvin followed my car... Thx guys for making my day, I felt so touched really. Too bad the tickets sold off =(

Reach Low Yat Plaza walk walk around and spent some time and bought a bluetooth handsfree... and to be honest, where ever i go, watever i see and watever i do i cant stop thinking bout Hon. I was suppose to relax my mind and concentrate what i'm suppose to do until Sunday. Keep telling myself need to give her time to relax her mind too. Everything will be better on Sunday and everything will be perfect on the day she return to malaysia(dec 17). It was really a bit too hard for me Hon... Cant stop feeling miserable u know?

But i finally decided to call her later at night to inform her bout the tickets.. I mean i promised to experience this Christmas with her in Singapore. Due to my nature of dragging things, the tickets are sold out... Sigh........ Feel so much beta and really happy that u are willingly to talk to me more like i expected.

I apologising for calling, i know i promised u, but i really feel like telling u bout the tickets.. Well, rest well now my Honey, and enjoy tomorrow's school's trip.. Really wont bother u anymore tomorrow. Luv U very much and willingly to luv u till the day i stop breathing.

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, baby

Another Unnecessary Arguement

I juz called Hon half an hour ago to wake her up for class (Malaysia and Switzerland has a 7 hours different time gap), but things didnt turn out very good again.. She kinda got piss at me for saying the wrg thing. I tried to explain myself but i think she didnt get it and she is piss and dowan to listen me. In the end, the phone call ended with both of us still frustrated. I'm not able to explain myself coz she doesnt wanna listen. I really dont meant it Hon, perhaps i really think too much lately, I really some need time to change like u too...

Most ppl called home their santuary, but to me staying at home for a few weeks already has been driving me crazy, staying at this miserable home alone has gimme nothing but lots of room to think of crazy and useless stuff. Too much has happen in life lately.

The only reason i stayed at home now is because i needed a place to sleep in, a shelter n of coz having my computer and my phone too. Me and Hon used to talk alot on the phone, used to skype on that computer alot too. But things are so different now, Hon no longer wanna sms me and call my phone that much already and she doesnt wanna skype with me either. All she can say is i dowan to talk to u anymore or i dun feel like talking. With these 2 sentences, i feel like i've been cast to death, lifeless, sleeping on that cold bed everyday is the worst feelings i ever felt in my life. Right now i can only pray for the better. For a better tomorrow..

Hon, you've been really grumpy/upset/bad mood.. Your really not like yourself anymore u know? All i can say now is that i really feel really bad for u, thats y i'm alwiz trying my best to talk 2 u now, reassure u and to cheer u up but u are so stubborn, when u say u dowan to talk means u dowan to talk and all i can do is stop talking and endure it.. Can u really see that i'm trying my best here to make u happy? Can u really see that i'm trying my best to be considerate? Can u really see that i'm doing this for 'Us', the both of us. I am not doing this for myself only u know? Do u think that stop talking can really help the 2 of us to get better? I really hope u'll put your anger aside 1st and use your heart to feel how i feel, how we feel, feel what do we need rite now.

Its really just 31 days to go and then when u come back we can hug each other to sleep. U said this yesterday 'Let's do this together, we still have hope' and cant tell u how happy and grateful i felt.. I wont give up this relationship, and i certainly hope u feel the same way.. We still love each other, and believe in each other... And in the end, i believe we will be stronger than b4 =) I really really luv u, really really need u too, and to me our love is really the most important thing in my life now..

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

November, Emo Month

U know what i think about Long Distance Relationship(LDR)?

1. Must appreaciate each other.

2. When there is a will, there is a way.

3. Have faith and trust each other fully.

4. Remind yourself that u 2 were meant to be together.

5. Think of your love ones when u think u r doing something wrong.

6. If you believe in the future, you'll be able to overcome any obstacle.

7. Communication is the only key to understand each other during this time.

8. Keeping intimacy all the time, remind each other of the sweet moments we used to have.

Me and Hon juz cant get back to the way we used to be. Both of us are really having a very difficult time now. Both of us are too sensitive and emotional and easily get angry and upset over small things. We cant put down what has happened n I tried my best to understand her, but i think i didnt do well. I really wish god could tell me what to do now...

No matter how hard i tried to talk things out with Hon, things juz keep going wrong. No matter how hard i try to comfort her, she juz cant really feel it fully right now. No matter how hard i try and apologise, she juz cant get the whole picture of it.

Its another 32 days to go till we can see each other again. Its another 32 days till we can love each other like we nv love b4. Its another 32 days till we can sleep next to each other holding each other so tight like we nv hug b4. (ITS JUST 32 DAYS TO GO!)

Honey, i just want u to know that i really really luv u and i dun mind what is the past. All i want is a future with u right now, a bright future. Who has never made mistakes in life b4 right? Its really the time to forgive and forget now..

Its all about us now, only us. No1 else can help us Hon. I didnt meant to push u like tat, its not even my intention. I juz hope time can replenish everything and make u feel better. I really treasure this relationship and i know that i cant lose u. So no matter what, i'll try my best to make u feel happier.

Really wanted a chance for the both of us... and i really really luv u my Honey.. i really really need u too..

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Again....

I really got no idea what i've done wrong again, with just a short text msg from her saying she wanna think about what i said juz now so we cant talk today and we'll talk tomorrow...

My mood is really bad, how can i wait for 9 hours like this? I really cant wait anymore, this is soo hard and tiring and bcoz of this i cant concentrate doing anything but keep worrying...

Sigh, Hon is doing this again eventhou she promised me not to...

Shes not picking my calls again now...

1 month and 5 days to go

Hon finally called me...

I really cant stop crying when i got her call, i was soooo worried the whole time cant eat n cant sleep. We talked alot on the phone yesterday night... She finally explained to me what had actually happen...

To her she thinks that i took her for granted, which i nv do that at all. I might sound not very appreciating and not really good at using words, I hope she'll understand tat i would do everything for her n I'm really still waiting for u to come 'home'

To her she also thinks that i dun care of her anymore when shes sick and busy. I really do Hon.. its juz that u cant see my facial emotions, i'm really worried to death.. So many things juz came into my mind, I wish I really could go there rite now n hug soo tight and feel your body warmth during this cold winter weather.

I really pity her sometimes, having a boyfren like me with a really bad temper and sarcasm mouth. When i'm overly worried my anger burst without warning.. I promised to become a better person for You to love but i fail to do so. All i can hope now is that u would gimme another chance to mend the wounds and pains i left behind, i promise to learn from experience and become a better lover for us and our future.

I really hope we talk more like we used to, we love each other like we used to, we comfort each other like we used to, we wait for each other like we used to, we manja each other like we used to....

I know i need you very much and I know i wouldnt let u go until the very day i stop breathing, I hope i can hear u say u love me very much too today... Bcoz i really meant it when i say i love u very much u know? Still 1 month and 5 days to go, really cant wait till the day when i have to go to the airport to fetch u=) To me, nothing is more precious compared to our love....

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Farewell My Dear Friend

Its been a long long time since i posted in my blog. I kinda 4get i actually owns 1, kinda neglect it for a while. I made a draft bout my Melacca rave party but haven upload the photos into it, will post it anytime this week.

Woke up in the morning waiting for Hon to reply my calls, actually cant sleep at all, I cant stop looking at my clock wondering why is she still not calling me.. I'm getting really worried and crazy now, i've called her many times no1 answer it n still waiting now... I'm soooo sad now its like i cant even gather enuff strength to breath anymore, i Need her So Much!

Sign in to my Hotmail and read sum mails until i came across 1 named quit from Twintech.. Its from Pauvine! Here is the msg she sent us:

To all lovely guys

It wouldn't be suprised to all of you, expected,right? There are a lot of reasons which i can't to continue again. I'll appreciate the times we spend to together(eating,shopping,fighting............)which cannot buy with money, and knowledge which i gained from Twintech.

Edmund - undestanding,helpful,hardworking(in studies only) and cute (because fat-fat ma,a bit handsome only)

Pei Rou - leadership espirit, helpful and sweet girl (always busy with appointment but this sem seems less so can spend some times with us)

Hie Ching - lovely siau cha boo (always take short cut but sometimes cannot short cut ooh)

Eng Lian - sleepy and busy boy (need to spend sometimes in studies,be serious and sensible, you can, right?)

Kai Yun - emotion girl (appreciate what you are today, don't blame this and that.Poor and rich just a "$" sign only,study hard and work hard,you surely can success. I'll keep the "secret" between you and me)

Yan Ching - timid and sweet girl(be brave so that nobody will bully you,talk more and nobody will laugh at you)

Dominic - love your body and take care(you'll be the best fighter and i'll pray for you)

Vincent - busy and "man" boy (try your best in Twintech even though you don't like.You are smart in studies actually,don't disapointed your parent,show them actually you can).

Ai Yii - cute, lovely crazy girl(it's happy to talk to you, always made us laugh like "orang gila, don't mind to be the crown)

Choon Ming - hardworking and 'cool' boy(is the parent's "good boy",almost catch up with the groups,keep it up)

I am not sure what actually happen but now i'm really speechless, another dear friend of us has quit the course.... Being the oldest 1 in the class and the one of the most talketive 1, she never fail to entertain us =) and alwiz represent our class to voice out our opinions. No matter what is it, we will alwiz remember we once had a very nice friend.