Merry Christmas everyone!

Today is the best day of the year! Well, its christmas eve already!

For all Christian, celebrate well! Joy to the world to the new born King!

For all Non-Christian, spent the whole night have a very nice dinner with your family, Christmas is all bout peace and reunion =)

For Better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in heath

Yes! the title reminds you of something right? For those who watched countless dramas and movies, arh yes! u got it, it is the vows of marriage.

Well, for most so called civilized people like us only think the content of these vows only valid when the both of you really get married one day. So, basically civilized people think marriage is all bout walking in the church and signing papers and then have a nice and grand dinner and then make babies? Think about it again, the content actually valid when the both of u start 2 b together on the first day, it even started when u 2 actually planned to be together.

Love your partner when she is better, Love your partner too when they are worse. They are times when your partner do lots of things that make u happy right? But do remember there are days that they may do something ugly too, something very disappointing. This is not the time to give up, this is the time when they needed more attention, make them feel desired, not abandoned.

Like the quote, Many people give up when they fail to realise how close they are to success. Remember, its actually really really hard for 2 people to meet each other in a world with so many other people around, and its even harder for them to actually fell in Love in each other. So now do u still think Love is really a coincidence? Think about it, there is alwiz Hope =) And alwiz understand during the times when u make mistakes, who forgive u? Your parents? Your friends? and I'm very sure you wont juz make 1 mistake in life. Who forgive u more than once? What if they didnt give u another chance? Do u still think u r who u r now? Everyone is not perfect, and we human do make mistakes.

As for richer and for poorer. Most of the couples doesnt have much problem here. To only 'materialistic people'(noone knows yourself better than you), try to think properly, money can secure almost everything, but really really cant secure the love you are having now. Yes they may buy u using money, u felt blessed with all those showers of gifts, but u cant guarantee they may not buy other people next time. In the end, the result can be quite ugly and devastating.

Now see how secure as that guy in handcuff look like, he have all the money he wants now. I dont want to see anyone got all the money and material they desire but later in Life they discover they are in deep trouble. Its really true, Money cant buy Happiness...

Well, in sickness and in heath now, sick can also be apply to your partner's sick attitude after the honeymoon phase. When they are sick, try to tell them and be at your most understanding state, tell them this is not making u happy. I strongly say this, dont endure those feelings please! Be true and honest, try not shout at them or tell them how come last time u treat me different, this can really really hurt the relationship. Anger brings more anger. Of coz its your resposibility to take care of them when they are sick =) Who else would do the job if its not u right?

In the end, Trust builds Love, Love secures the relationship =) Its not that hard to understand each other actually, juz give it a try and u'll see the differences in just a blink of eye time. You dont have to envy other people's relationship, trust me, trust yourself, and trust your partner, you can do it too =)

Wish u 2 could live happily ever after =) Will update the blog soon again! Alwiz appreciate all my readers!

The Light of Tomorrow

The last few days in KL was bizarre and confusing. I somehow develop a new hobby in the process. Began buying more books to read on, and somehow got really obsessed with it too. Well, all this had happened has surely change me to another person. I began seeing things differently, at a more detail angle was it, looking at all the possibilities available first before assessing it. Well, i could also say all this has somehow Mature me.

I'm finally in my hometown now waiting for Christmas. The small island situated somewhere on East Malaysia. There is nothing much to do here honestly. I used to hate this very little island, claming that this place is small and not fun and no future staying here, until yesterday i step back into this house, all the old memories come back, I used to grow up here. The still warm feeling of this house has melted my Desire away. When they say nothing is more comfortable than your Home, Its true =)

As for tomorrow, I gracefully handed it to God now. Surrendering myself to Him, I no longer wanna contradict with his ideas. I'm so tired and exhausted now after a long fight in the battlefield. This is the time when he ask me to run for cover and take a good spiritual rest. I'm on my recovery phase now.

The Light of Tomorrow

Still clinging on the the very last breath of Hope, i'm alwiz looking forward to a better tomorrow, I believe the light of tomorrow is brighter than yesterday. We certainly have no rights to decide tomorrow, the only power we Human have is Now. You may plan for tomorrow, but life doesnt alwiz go the way we wanted it to be. So why not let God decide what he want for us tomorrow right? What will happen will happen, its all been decided. The future has been decided.

Will update the blog sooner than you would think =) Keep reading! Take care guys

(added Sound of my soul section, the very song that is representing my feelings right now)

The story of a Devil with a human heart

I was used to be something wild, cold blooded, arrogant, and heartless. Everything bad flow in my mind, i was so filled with negativity. Arh... i do many bad things and didnt realise how wrong was I. Yes like most you all already know, I'm actually the devil himself.

Till one day i was given Love, still a Devil, but i gain the a new ability to develop a 'Human Heart'. What is a Human Heart many may ask. Heart that its own mind, its own life. It is able to Love, Care, Cuddle, and involved itself in a relationship. That is what my true definition of a Human Heart. Starting from that day i became a Devil with a human heart.

I finally realise that wateva i was doing not justified. Still a devil, i tried my best to change, to twist the root of my heart to a new me, a completely transform person. I learn to love better, learn to care better, but i really dunno why i was alwiz not enough. Finally i realise i was able to hide my devilish nature for the moment.

Like they say, Men needed direction in what they should give and should not. This is the hardest thing for a women to understand. What is alwiz in their mind was, if he doesnt do it naturally he didnt mean doing it, or if I ask him to do this then it was Me not His decision to do it. Do understand Men dun think like Women, we are different! To be honest, if u would love to date someone who knows so much bout every little things, I think the perfect candidate is God Himself. Be honest with your men. The greatest sacrifice of Love is to Love someone who is imperfect perfectly.

I believe this is the main reason for the failure of our relationship.

After talking 2 her few days ago, listening to everything she said and take them into consideration. Its obvious she had changed to a completely different person now. I have changed to a complete person too. No matter how hard i explain, she would say i didnt have to tell her what do to, its true that i dont have the right to do so anymore too. 我不想在为你这样的男人在流泪, after hearing this, i know its not worth investing anymore, she could only see the pain she go thru. She said she is tired of crying for me, well to be honest i'm tired of listening to her cries too.. The Love has turn into Hate in such a short period of time.

I was hurt but that allow me to see the true colour of this whole relationship. There is no point of return anymore.

Right now i'm writing a post like this i certainly understand that there are gonna be some people who are not happy bout it. Well, all i could say is i have the freedom to write in everything i want now. I no longer be in controlled. The devil could no longer suppress his feelings. I tried my best with no regrets=)

Once again thx for reading. Will update when i'm in Labuan again! I get to see Fuji very soon =)

(I've link a few other interesting blogs up, do pay them a visit too if u have the time)

Being human is the hardest thing in Life

If u guys read my first post in my blog which started on July 21, 2007. The first post started as an intention to enable 'her' to know what i'm up to in Malaysia so she would not worry bout me too much. That was the day she left for Switzerland to further her studies. That is what inspire me to start this Blog or could i say my true meaning to start this blog =)

During that time, I would consider this blog was owned by me and her. But i made it very clear now, I own this blog personally starting from today. I no longer write things for other people.

She called a moment ago. We certainly do talked bout 'something'. But in the end we made up our minds that we wont be doing this together anymore. She said she wasnt ready to get back into a relationship. I respect her decision and for being so honest with me. No matter what happen in the future, we wouldnt know. Hope everything will go smooth for her during her stay in Malaysia.

Being human is really the hardest thing in Life itself, trying to be who u r, trying to be the best out of who u r, trying to compete with the changing and busy world everyday, and trying to love someone but u couldnt do in anymore. We are constantly exposed to different degree of emotional and mental challenges. but I guess thats the only way to make Life Blooms!

Yeah! I shud be going back to Labuan for Christmas this wednesday or thurday also! Who wants to pick me up gimme a call okay?! Alrite then, see u guys on Labuan =)

Gotta report to bed now, will update the blog very soon again! Take care and good nite everyone.

(added a section called Resolution of 2008, it means things to do on 2008)

No such thing as hopeless unless you are dead

The real meaning of hopeless is defined as providing no hope; beyond optimism or hope; desperate; impossible to accomplish.

Hope is not able to measure in a quantity too. U cant say u shouldnt put too much hope, you have a very high hope, its no more hope.

I had a dream this morning.

I was laying on the bed in the hospital. I wasnt sure how i ended up there but i suppose my soul was somehow seperated with my body, i could see myself lying in that cold piece of bed, yet i could walk around. My family members were waiting outside for me to regain my consciousness. There were another family there also, but i couldnt remember them. There i saw my mum waited there, she had tears in her eyes.. Only when i try to talk to her, i knew it couldnt reach her, she cant hear me. What is really happening to me?!

I was in panic, fear of losing everyone, i cant stand it anymore, i started crying too but i cant be heard, the worst feelings of my life. After a while the doctor came, everyone stood up. He says to my Mum(my family), we've tried our best and everything went well, your son really has hope in living. Hope, as soon as i heard that word, I felt a warm aura, I needed to get back into my body.

The doctor then turned to the other family, we've tried out best but he still didnt have any response, you guys should give up Hope already. Everyone burst into tears, crying and weeping and hugging each other. They know they lost a very dear family member. I try to avoid such dramatic scene and went back to the bed where my body lies. To my surprise, i didnt notice there was someone beside me, his soul got seperated too. I asked him what is wrong?

He overheard the doctor's conversation, they are giving up Hope on me, he answered me. He said your really lucky to have survive this, so when u return to earth do love yourself more than anything, nv give up Hope. God doesnt alwiz give us a 2nd chance. I nodded and jump back into my body.

I was awaken, back in my old home, in my own bed, i'm so relieved, everything was a dream! but what that guy told me was right, i'm lucky to have survive this, so when u return to earth do love yourself more than anything, nv give up hope. God doesnt alwiz give us a 2nd chance. I'm felt really sorry for him because everyone gave up hope on him, it was really the saddest thing to hear in Life.

I finally understand now, only the Dead are hopeless. Those who are still in control with their life, those who still alive, you still have hope. Hope will show you the way when you are consumed by darkness, without Hope i would have be dead like him too. There are still more things in life to accomplish.

I had fully understand the meaning of 'Many people failed to realise how close they are to success when they give up'.

Really thank God for everything so far...

God can heal a broken heart when he have all the pieces

A friend sent me a website, with this picture in it. With a very meaningful article in it. My tears fell after finish reading it. Its really touching. Its based on true story but i summarize it, it was freaking long to post it on my blog.


Its an article written by a couple long long time ago when their heart was broken up to many pieces. Like most people they started as friends and they fell head over heels for each other. Things moved very fast, they were so in loved, they stayed together, they do everything together. They thought they will last forever.

They got together for around 2 months, each were busy with their lifes now, work and social. They spent less time talking to each other, they somehow forgotten how to love each other like they used to. The next thing they know they were argueing all the time, fighting and screaming. The love they once felt is no longer there. The Love they once own together was scattered into many pieces. The broke up in the end.

2 heart broken people walk alone on this earth now. Each of them holding a few pieces of the scattered Love in their hands. They think this is really over, there are no Hope left anymore.

The man showed his scattered pieces to his friends, this is what they say, look at all those pieces, its impossible to patch them back anymore, forget it coz once its broken its forever broken. Even God will have trouble patching it back now.

The woman too showed her scattered pieces to her friends, this is what they say, Oh my, its broken up to too many pieces, even if u can patch it up, it will still have scars, so forget bout it and move on okay? Even God will have trouble patching it back now.

After the guy heard what his friends said, still holding the scattered pieces in his hand, He asked himself and he asked God. ''Lord, i never felt anything like this before in my life, and i truly can say this, I'm still very attached to her, do you think you can patch this broken heart for us again? He got frustrated because God didnt answer him but right deep in his heart, the guy already know that he has made an important decision, he wants to patch things back up.

He called the girl and ask her out. They talk bout something but the feeling wasnt the same like they used to have, its really cold. He also notice that the girl wasnt holding on to the broken pieces already. He was very disappointed but he didnt give up. Occasionally, he would called the girl back and show that he still care for her very much. After sometime, the girl open up back up her box, the box where she kept all those broken pieces. She didnt give up actually, if she really given up she would have thrown all the pieces away.

He sees improvement, take this golden opportunity to convince the girl to give them another chance. It wasnt a respond the guy was looking for, but she nodded. They have hard time getting back together like who they used to be, they wanna be as loving as last time but there are resentments in them now. Its really difficult for them to do this.

But most importantly, they found all the broken pieces back. This is when God do his Magics, he healed the broken heart. It was not perfect, but its no longer broken, there are scars. These scars truly remind them of their own mistakes, what really happen that scattered their Love. The guy understands now, God wants him to look for the missing pieces himself, in order for him to work his magic. He thank God that he never give up in the first place.

They learnt from experience, they got back together, got married and live happily ever after now.

He left this quote, Many people give up when they fail to realise how close they are to success.

10 important quotes i'm believing now

1. You dont know how to live with her, but u also dont know how to live without her too.

2. Never leave today's problem to tomorrow when tomorrow will have new problems.

3. Focus = Focus on current until successful.

4. Scars remind us of what really happen so we wont repeat the same mistakes.

5. Never give up hope unless there are no hope anymore.

6. Unconditional Love = Love that has no calculations. I do more and she didnt do anything, that doesnt work.

7. Do what u really think you should be doing and be firm to that decision.

8. Think Big! but dont juz think of it, think about how can you reach it.

9. People should strive for improvements not think of the past.

10. To be honest, no one likes to see their love ones cry.

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

Went to lunch and hang out with a close friend 2 days ago, she surprised me with this book in her hand.

She said: Vincent, I dont think u really understand what your girlfriend want actually, can u please read this book? I've read it and i think its really a good book, I hope you'll stop making mistakes like you used to.

Me: I dont think you really understand what really happen too, but i dont feel like talking about it now bcoz the 2 of us are suppose to have a nice lunch today. (but i nodded and took the book and smile back)

As soon as i finish lunch, i went home and immediately start reading it. There is really an interesting story in the book that I would love share it here, it is what the author experience personally when he fails to understand what actually her wife wants and trying to tell him.

This is it:

A week befoure our daughter Lauren was born, my wife Bonnie, and i were completely exhausted. Each night Lauren kept waking us. Bonnie had been torn in the delivery and she was taking painkillers. She could barely walk. After five days of staying home to help, i went back to work. She seemed to be getting better.

While i was away she ran out of pain pills. Instead of calling me at the office, she asked one of my brothers, who was visiting, to purchase more. My brother, however, did not return with the pills. Consequently, she spent the whole day in pain, taking care of a newborn.

I had no idea that her day had been so awful. When i returned home she was very upset. I misintepreted the cause of her distress and thought she was blaming me.

She said, ''I've been in pain all day. I ran out of pills. I've been stranded in bed and nobody cares!''

I said defensively, ''Why didnt you call me?!''

She said, ''I asked your brother, but he forgot! I've been waiting for him to return all day. What am I supposed to do? I can barely walk. I feel so deserted!''

At this point i exploded. my fuse was also very short that day. I was angry that she didnt called me. I was furious that she was blaming me when i didnt even know she was in pain. After exchanging a few harsh words, I headed for the door. I was tired, irritable, and had heard enough. We had both reach our limits.

Then something started to happen that would change my life.

Bonnie said, ''Stop, please dont leave. This is when i need you the most. I'm in pain. I havent slept in days. Please listen to me.''

I stopped for a moment to listen.

She said, ''John Gray, you're a fair-weather friend! As long as i'm sweet, Loving Bonnie you are here for me, but as soon as i'm not, you walk right out that door.

Then she paused, and her eyes filled up with tears. As her tone shifted she said, ''Right now i'm in pain. I have nothing to give, this is when i need you the most. Please, come over here and hold me. You don't have to say anything. I just need to feel your arms around me. Please dont go.''

I walked over and silently held her. She wept in my arms. After a few minutes, she thanked me for not leaving. She told me that she just needed to feel me holding her.

At that moment I started to realize the real meaning of Love, Unconditional Love. I had always thought of myself as a loving person. But she was right. I had been a fair-weather friend. As long as she was happy and nice, I loved back. But if she was unhappy or upset, I would feel blamed and then argue or distance myself.

That day, for the first time, I didnt leave her. I stayed, and it felt great. I succeeded in giving to her when she really needed me. This felt like real love. Caring for another person. Trusting in our love. Being there at her hour of need. I marveled at how easy it was for me to support her when i was shown the way.

How had i missed this? She just needed me to go over and hold her. Another womed would have instinctively known what Bonnie needed. But as a man, I didnt know that touching, holding, and listening were so important to her. By recognizing these differences I began to learn a new way of relating to my wife. I would have never believed we could selove conflict so easily.

After that incident, it inspired the author to reseach and develop this book Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus to help people like us to overcome our relationship problems.

I used to be like the author too, when my gf needed me the most, i felt blamed, i thought i was was one of her problems but when she is happy, I'm alwiz there loving her. In another word, i only love her when she is happy, when she is sad, i distance myself. This is call selfish!

This book had made me realise the mistakes i really made, I'm very sure that all this has change me from the worse to a better person. This four weeks of isolation from 'her', the hope i still have has fuel me back up, I've failed, and i'm climbing back up now. I just hope i was given a 2nd chance in Life, I'll prove to her how much i changed, not with words but with actions. Cant emphasize enough on how sorry I am now.

Thx to that close friend that bought me this book, i'm really touched. To those who are still in a relationship now, if u 2 are really experiencing troubles understanding each other, please go and get a copy of this book before the last light disappear. I wish you all the best =)

Will update the blog very soon again, take care guys!

Hitman the Movie

I juz watch this movie yesterday night and it was really awesome! For those who havent watch it, plz go! Two thumbs up again!

I'm like a Medic in the Battlefield now

In the battlefield there stand 3 forces, each plays an important role in defending their country. The medics, the land troops, and the air force.

1. The medics heal the land troops to reduce the fatalities/injuries and they hold the key to the victory in the battlefield.

2. The land troops defend their land with their lives to protect everything including the medics and provide a safe ground for the air force to land. They again hold a key to the victory in the battlefield.

3. The air force has a great advantage high above which they can clear the enemies land troops to greatly reduce their number, this gives such advantage to their team, they too hold a key to the victory in the battlefield.

The 3 forces each holds a key to the victory in the battlefield. Who is the greatest then? Lets see what problem will they face when they take each other for granted.

1. Medics think they are so great, they heal and save lives, but they suck in combat. They can be easily killed by the enemy land troops.

2. The land troops think they are so great, they defend the land, but without the help of the medics and air force, fatalities increase, they will be outnumbered by the enemy very soon.

3. Air force obviously cant land to restock when the ground has taken by enemy forces.

I'm in the same situation actually. Me, She and Love are our forces.

People alwiz ask me why dont u give up? I simply tell them 'I'm like a Medic in the Battlefield now', i'm trying to heal it, if i give up, the war is over. Everything is coexisting and if i dont try i wont know the result. Well, i'm not sure whether she had given up or not because right now she is still very far away, cant see and contact her yet.

If things didnt turn out to be good, then at least i can still tell myself that i've tried my very best till the very end and i have no more regrets, better than running back to hometown and neglect the truth, if i run i sure lose.

I've never given up Hope at all, alwiz hoping for the best =)

The Black Parade

I've been waiting for this very moment!

My Chemical Romance is finally here and THEY will be performing in KL tomorrow BUT! i'm stucked here without any tickets =(

This is bad, really bad, the tickets are sold out and i wanna go to their concert so badly.

Addicted to Fall Out Boy

I'm really really addicted to this song "I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You)" by the Fall Out Boy. I've been listening to it more than 5 times a day everyday and still havent get bored of it yet. I think this song is about how bad the relationship has become after some time of being together.

Last year's wishes
Are this year's apologies
Every last time i come home
I take my last chance
To burn a bridge or two
I only keep myself in this sick in the head
Cause i know how the words get you
We're the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better off
Bullet proof loneliness
At best, At best

Me and You

Setting in the honeymoon

If I woke up next to you

If I woke up next to you

Collect the bad habits

That you couldn't bare to keep

Out of the woods but I love

A tree I used to lay beneath

Kissed teeth stained red

From a sour bottle baby girl

With eyes the size of baby worlds

We're the new face of failure

Prettier and younger but not any better off

Bullet proof loneliness

At best, at best

Me and You

Setting in the honeymoon

If I woke up next to you

If I woke up next to you

The best way

To make it through

With heart and wrists intact

Is to realise

Two out of three ain't bad

Ain't bad

Me and You

Setting in the honeymoon

If I woke up next to you

If I woke up next to you

I'm okay already =)

OMG, yesterday wasnt my day, was almost controlled by my emo-self but i'm finally feeling better today, actually i feel great today =)

Oh yeah, i watched Enchanted with a couple of friends in cineleisure yesterday night.

Enchanted

It was great! Happy fairy tale ending, a romantic comedy, juz cant stop laughing when i'm watching it. For those who havent watch it, please go! I think this movie quite good, two thumbs up!

I'll be going to a bible study today too, need to get some advises in life from the pastor.

Will update the blog very soon again =)

(Update on my profile and if u guys didnt notice it, I already removed the picture of Me and Ming Fen, a new Facts bout this blog section has been added too)

I'm back!

I was actually awaken by a very terrible dream this morning. Since then, i've been feeling weird, worried, and lonely the whole day. I wonder why.. Sigh.. Well, i swear i was feeling better few days ago, but things juz kept flushing in after the dream, I'm back to my emotional-self again for today.. I cant control myself..

I suddenly have the urge to look back at the old photos in my computer, click and open and look at it and tears fell down.. The flashback of the images of how happy we used to be when 'she' was still in Malaysia, I miss them so much. We used to travel around and going places together. We used to be a very happy couple. We used to love each other very very much too. Maybe what they say is right, good things dun last forever..

I remember we do face many obstacles b4 we got together. Many people, many words, and many things actually try to stop us. I'm sure 'she' remembers it too. Those were the old times. But in the end we manage to overcome it, and we got together and make everyone's jaw dropped. That is our beginning, the 5th of May of 2007, we been together for more than half a year already =)

I m still thinking what actually went wrong in between us. We did talk abit these few days, but i can feel the coldness between us already. Now we dun really have much things to talk about anymore, less feel less topic already. Is this really the end of everything? I still have the feeling that 'she' still doesnt wanna talk to me yet, everytime when i started talking to her, something came up, like 'she' needs to prepare now, 'she' needs to sleep now, 'she' needs to go out now. I guess i really hurt 'her' too much last time, staying connected to me hurts her in some way, I hope time heals.

Well, I know I'm not in the right position to say this but I still care for 'her' very much, will still think of her occasionally. But in just 2 more weeks 'she'll be coming back to Malaysia, we'll see each other that time. I really hope for the best for us. Plz study hard right now, coz your finals are coming =)

Please God stay with us again this time. Thanks for everything so far.

Mei Ting, Happy Birthday!

Talked to Ming Fen few days ago, so surprised that she called, felt quite happy actually even though we didnt talk much =)

In the end, i'm not going to fetch her from the airport on the day she arrived already(17th of Dec), her dad wants to fetch her.. I think she'll miss her family so much, so i decided to step away and let her have some quality family time after 5 months away from home. I think that after so many hours of flight she should be tired too, not really a good time to talk.

We'll see each other when we really got the chance to see each other then =) Take care for now. Will still be calling u on the 15th.

Well, actually today was Mei Ting's birthday.. Didnt get the chance to go out together, this is what she told rehui: I've not available tonight.. Lol, nvm will go out on saturday then =) Enjoy the day yea? Coz you're the star tonight!

Getting stronger in Life, I've grown

Since the breakup, Me and Ming Fen nv talk to each other for a week already, well i promised her that i wouldnt disturb her till its almost the time for her to come back.. But i heard nothing from her for such a long time, its somehow bothering me. To many people they think its only a week, but to me a week is really difficult to go thru.. Juz wanna let her know that i still care for her very much. Its 19 days till her homecoming, I hope that i'm still able to fetch her that day, I'll be waiting in Malaysia..

I used to dun appreciate it when she calls or sms me, after reading the book For Men Only, I understand that women call bcoz they care and they are worried, I think most men doesnt understand this, I was once a man who dun understand a thing bout a women, I really wish i read the book earlier =( Human is really the stupidest creature, they only know how precious is it until they really lost it, like me, i've lost everything now and need to start all over again. Sigh.. I promised myself that next time i try my best to become a better lover.

I realised that i've been staying at home alot now, bought so many books to read on how to improve myself, try to understand women properly, i even read horoscope(cant imagine a man doing that right?)!

Cooking is my passion, so I started cooking alot after i read the Rich Dad book, cooking gives me the understanding and knowledge of skills, timing and ingredients in food. That book simply ignite my will and make me understand if i want a career in the F&B line, I simply need to start working on it now, I finally starting to understand that i need to get stronger in Life, why is everyone moving except me? I hope i'm not too slow..

Robert definition of Focus in the book:

F = Focus
O = On
C = Current
U = Until
S = Successful

Since the breakup, it thought me alot of new things, makes me realise that my priorities in lfe. I need to become stronger and provide both emotional and financial security to the 1 I loved. Really thx to this breakup, I've grown

I need to go to the gym now, Will update the blog next time when i'm more free.

(added a new chat box into my blog too, feel free to type anything in there alrite?)

Horoscope

I got stucked the whole day yesterday at home online and chatting. Been thinking alot lately, and i finally came out with a conclusion after the whole day. Since the beginning i already know wat I wanted, already know what shud i do, but i wonder at the same time why are there so many other thoughts that are trying to influence me.. Well, ppl's words can have such a great impact, muz really be confident to myself till the very end, I still believe we live on to watch our own endings, not by listening to others. I've made up my mind.

I usually dun believe in horoscope, but yet i still decided to do some reading on it. I simply muz know what actually happen between us, to me i think a problem shud be solve if not its forever a problem, next time still a problem. Look at the horoscopic view of Aries with Gemini; Gemini with Aries.

Aries with Gemini:
Gemini individual is restless, has numerous ideas and plenty of nervous energy. In a sense, this is fine. However, carried to extremes, you both tend to scatter your forces. The key is to be selective, to choose the best. The Gemini is Mercury and your significator is Mars. Gemini tends to give you a sense of direction, but also to tire you. This is because you find yourself moving, visiting, entertaining, being entertained. You tend to try to be every place at once when tied up with the typical Gemini native. Gemini makes you want to learn, to experiment, to report, whether that reporting be in the from of notes and eventually a story or article.
Gemini gets you going - sometimes to the point of starting arguments. You can argue with Gemini, and Gemini can make you tired, but, Aries, you are also intellectually stimulated ... and this is no small matter.

With Gemini, you can expect a plentiful supply of change, travel and variety. There is excitement generated and muck activity. If your forces are properly channeled, this combination could be a profitable, satisfying one.

Gemini with Aries:
Aries individuals affect that section of the Gemini chart related to hopes, wishes, and friendship. You are attracted to Aries. The attraction can grow into Love. Listen, Gemini: you might start out playing games with the Fire sign, Aries. But don't play with fire if you are not prepared to get burned. The relationship here can be favorable, if you are prepared for the consequences. Those consequences include a lasting relationship, physical attraction, a liking of hopes and desires.

Many of your friends are Aries native. Together, Aries and Gemini create adventure, travel opportunities. Your creative urges are accented. You love change, adventure, and travel. With Aries you could find the perfect companion or mate. But you both tend to tire each other. Realize, Gemini that Aries does like to lead the way. And you have some ideas of and you don't take your own -you tend to be experienced and you don't take kindly to regimentation.

You have a lot to learn from Aries. But in the process, you could be rubbed the wrong way. Expect a fascinating relationship but the road is not smooth. You will have to arrive at an understanding. Otherwise, much of your energy will be spent in arguing, in conflict.
Generally, Aries is favorable for you. Your interests are heightened. You read. You write. You express opinions. You travel. Very exciting if you first decide that Aries is going to be the boss, no matter what!

The Mars of Aries and your Mercury ruler blend to produce excitement, travel, a tendency to argue but a basic attraction, which makes it a pleasure to reconcile. Aries may force you to get down to business where ideas are concerned. If you don't mind being led. Eventually Aries could be instrumental in aiding you toward goals, toward fulfillment of desires.

(sources are from http://kamalkapoor.com/)

Most of the things happen is quite true according to what i've experienced, shud really read it earlier and access the situation next time!

I'm actually in a rush now but nvm, will update the blog very soon again =) take care everyone

6 days later

Yesterday was my last paper, i felt so relieved now. Looking at my calender, i didnt realise that its already 6 days after the breakup. I could still remember that night like it just happened yesterday. This week is really disastrous, so much happened lately, or i could say everything happen during this time. I was facing 2 life challenges together, my breakup and my finals, this is my first time doing breakup during my finals, but thank God it made me stronger, I think that is wat God was trying to do, No pain really no Gain..

Mum called me during that afternoon, she asked me whether i'm okay and she asked me if i wanted go back home during this period. She understand that its hard to wait but i rejected her offer, because i think going home doesnt change anything. I told her tat i still have some unfinished business in KL, I'm not bringing it to anywhere until i get a confirmation, an answer, and the only thing i could do now is Wait. I promised her that i'll find something to do during this holidays, I wont rot at home.

Finals over, Wat else can we do? Have fun lah of coz and enjoy the holidays while i still can! Was invited to spent the nite with my coursemates. We had dinner first, then watch a movie, and go to the karaoke =)

We had dinner at T.G.I Fridays in 1U. This place was used to be our(Me and Ming Fen) favourite, its still mine of coz. As usual, I ordered a glass of Lemonade, every sip of it brings back the old memories. I still remember the very first time we had dinner here, it was a great one, the only problem was there was this black guy, he was a waiter there and keeps checking out my girlfriend, it really pisses me off and I cant do anything bout it. I wonder whether do we still have the chance to go here again, together..

A memorable glass of Lemonade that we both like

Me and my coursemates, there are actually more but unfortunately our table couldnt fit all

Oh yeah! I bought a book from MPH, For men only by Shaunti and Jeff Feldhahn.

For men only!

Shaunti is the author of the bestselling for women only, a book to understand men. As for men only, is a book to understand women. U know stuff like when a women said no but actually they dun mean it, and stuff like what is always in their minds, why do they like to mentioned about the past, and stuff like why are they alwiz so worried about every little thing, its all covered in this book. Time to think like a women and understand women! I know i'm not an understanding boyfriend, that is why i'm trying my best to change =) I too wish everything best for my gal, who would wanna hurt their love ones right? I hope this book helps =)

Well, I've been very long winded already, i think its time to stop.. To people who are still in Love, Love your Love Ones like U nv Love b4 alrite? Its really hard for 2 person to actually fell for each other. Treasure every moment together!

(I've added a new section of the songs that i'm listening to now)

Wait...

Dominic stopped studying in my Uni due to some difficulties he is facing now. Really pity him.. His a nice guy with a warm heart but a terrible health.. Its been a while since i saw him, so me and Yee Leng decided to hang out today with Dom in MidValley.

So I Met up with Dominic and Yee Leng in MidValley 2day... but later joined in by Rachel, Chi Fu and his brother, Fu Hao... I tell u Chi Fu's brother is a professional in Long Distance Relationship(LDR). When i hear his story i was so dem amazed because he is still in a LDR with his galfren for few years already! Shocking! Why ppl can do it and I cant? Gotta get some advise from the pros...

After some talk, he opened my mind to alot of things. He tells me what is my current situation and suggest how shud i improve it.. N thx to Dominic's quote 'Think out of the Box', although its abit lame. I really felt so much better day by day. Everyone is so positive except me, what a shame really..

Thx to them that i've finally made up my mind, I decided that i shud be in my improvement phase now. I'm like a regular guy, waiting is not gonna be an easy thing. So shud start getting myself occupied now. Think out of the box! LoL! Dominic, u suck really...

Tomorrow is my last paper already, then my holidays gonna start next week till next year's January. I really have alot alot of time to do alot of stuff while waiting for Ming Fen to come back and have a proper talk. Still 3 weeks + to go.. Lets really only talk when u come back alrite? Take care and enjoy the last few weeks in Swiss.

To those who stayed with me all the time when i'm down, really thx..

Another great piece of advise

My cousin, Pauline, offered me to stay at her place so i wouldnt have to stay in that lonely home today. Staying there really gives me alot of room to think of all the unnecessary and negative stuff especially if i'm alone at night, Me and Ming Fen actually spent alot of time together in that house, it still leaves memories.. But i believe time will heal, but of coz it will take some time.

My cousin, she talked to me, which really makes me feel so much better =) Really thx.... She said how can u say you guys are serious but actually such small matters could make u 2 ended up like this. I mean Me and Ming Fen did talk bout our futures, bout us getting married and having kids and living in the same house. I promised her that i would buy her a dog when she finished her studies and stayed with me in 1 house too...

My cousin, she simply answer me this, u guys were serious in the relationship thats why u both talked bout the future, i'm very glad.. but do understand that u 2 are still very young, things happen unexpectedly, both of u dun really ready to commit yet.. Juz a few arguements both of u already on the edge of breaking up, with Ming Fen loving me less than b4 and losing confidence in me, while I was getting more angry and angry each day of her treating me cold and I would call her so many times a day like crazy . Both of us are still very childish. I can finally see that both of us are really not so ready into a serious relationship like we used to promised each other.

This is my blog, I used it to express my own personal feelings, u can choose to read it or ignore, i wouldnt force u too either. Dont say i wrote it because of who who who. I wrote it because i wanted to okay? I have the freedom and rights to do so, furthermore i agree to the terms and condition offered by Blogger.com, if your not happy bout it, try to sue me or report to blogger.com. Dun talk like u know alot bout everyone, if your so good in a relationship you'll be in love now and taking effort in it with your special one not talk bout other ppl's stuff. If u ppl are really so free, try and find other things to talk okay? Its rude to judge from a third person view, because u ppl know nothing bout this relationship... I apologise if it did offended u... I'm juz being honest =)

But if Ming Fen is still reading this, hope to tell u that it is really harsh on making such selfish decision that day. Apologising is all i could do now, that is why i hope we could talk properly during December, face to face.. Both of us shud put this aside first and only talk on December. I know that u wouldnt wanna talk to me yet so I promised u that i would leave alone right now. I will still write on my blog, whether u wanna read it or not its really up to u... Well, I'll call u when its about time for u to come back Home, study hard at the moment and take care of yourself coz its really cold during winter.

Aftermath of a break-up

Well, yesterday was having a hard time.. Cant really sleep and eat at all.. And i Had Ocular Visual Science(OVS) paper, i think i didnt really do well in it too, sigh..... =(

After mum and few calls from friend, i really felt so much better now. I had the whole day to think yesterday and i finally know what to do already. I simply must Move On, that is the only thing i could do right now...

Wait till Ming Fen come back on Dec 17, we'll talk bout it more during that time. By facing each other when u talk, u are more able to evaluate personal emotions and feelings toward each other. Simply means that we can understand each other better during face to face talking.

Lets juz say we have to put our relationship aside first, my finals is this week, and her finals shud be coming in 3 weeks. Well, time is running out, gotta study now =)

Thx to everyone who put effort to talk to me and reassure me, i cant tell u how grateful i am really..

First day of Alone

Today is the first day of being alone.. I no longer have Hon around me anymore. No more hope on calls or sms from her anymore.. We are gonna stay away from each other a while now. Alot has happen lately. Both of us really need a time out actually.

I know this is hard, but I really have to do it, gather my rusted courage from deep inside me, and be back who I was used to be when i didnt have her. Things that happen really leaves scars.. I know i cant pretend i nv have her b4, but i will tell myself i no longer have her anymore. I have to understand that no1 even God never promise us that life is not difficult..

We promised to see each other when she arrived in KLIA on dec 17.. I hope we will be able to talk to each other during that time. If things go well again, maybe our cherry blossoms will bloom again. Who knows what God is planning right?

I hope through this break up, we are able to channel all our thoughts to what is important to us now. I also hope that we are able to gain more experience and be a better lover next time. If there is a slight chance of recovery, I'm sure that I wont give up.. I dun really wanna do this actually but this is the best for the moment.

With all my prayers to our Beloved God, I really hope for the best during dec. Thank God for everything so far...

Its over already

The time is 1:44 a.m. right now.. I'm feeling really down.. Me and Hon finally broke up.. We started at 3rd of May and it ended at 19th of November.

Although the time we are together was very short, those time were the most precious moments we had together. Playing, Laughing, Irritating, Harassing, Cuddling, i cant really list out all the happy things that we do together.. I really enjoyed those moments.. Those were the most precious moments in my life..

But i guess good things dun last forever.. My dream of being forever with her was finally broken. What everyone said was true, There are no everlasting Love.. To those people that put such high hopes on our future, I would wanna apologise to u all.

We are not able to last for another 27 days where she was coming back for her internship. But i promised her, we will see each other during that time, i will still go to the airport and fetch her. I really hope things would be better that time.

I should not be saying this anymore, but I really still love her very much.. I really really still love u very much Honey.

Its Sunday already

Woke up quite early again.. I really cant sleep well these few weeks.. In a result, i wrote a very long email and sent to Honey again..

Yea, if u guys remember, Hon did promised that we would talk today. Yes, its the Sunday i've been so looking forward to.

Hon, she was supposed to go to a school trip yesterday but she didnt, I really dunno wats wrg again.. When she woke up, she dropped me a msg in Skype. Thank God for giving me this chance when I decided to drop by my computer to check something, i saw her msg, I felt really relieved, i mean i didnt really expect us to be able to talk/msg on Saturday. I really miss her and i tell u the thought of needed to wait for a whole day without her news is enuff to drive me crazy. I can tell u, a day without her is no longer possible. I'm juz so addicted and obssessed.

So we talked, skyped a bit yesterday.. But it was not a very good conversation. I think both of us really cant talk like we used to talk anymore, i've been wondering will we ever go back to that stage anymore. She still doesnt feel like talking to me yet. Most of the time, we juz stoned and look at each other through our webcams. Its sweet, I still like to stared at that innocent face of her. But by the look of this, if the both of us doesnt wanna take more effort in this, I already know what will happen in the future.

Maybe i've been expecting too much from her.. Ming Fen, my Honey is like rest of the girl on this planet. Like most girls, they want all the attention they can have from their boyfriends. If my Honey is still in Malaysia, I would spent every morning and every night with her, the first person i wanted to see when i wake and the last person to see when i'm going to sleep. Thats what we do when she was still here, we would stick on to each other like Honeys, never really unglue each other b4. I miss those days..

When she went to Switzerland, we have distance and time gap that is spoiling us. Distance, we cant see each other like we used, cant really understand our body languages anymore. 7 hours of Time gap now, when its my time to go sleep, she juz finished class, the time we talked is getting less and less each day. Thats y eventhou i'm tired everyday, I'm still happy to talk to her in Skype or have a phone call with her later in the midnight. Is juz that she cant see how happy i m when i'm alwiz with that tired tone(sleeping tone). I also promised her that from next year onwards, I'll save money and go to Swiss at least once every year so i'm able to see her 3 times a year, 2 times is when she come back during school holidays. 3 compared to 2 makes a lot of difference.. I hope u understand Hon, with LDR, i cant be there for u like i used to, i cant be there everytime u want me to, but i'm alwiz trying my best u know?

Due to the time gap, more problems occur too.. When i'm out with my friends, she wanted to talk and i cant. And when i wanted to talk, shes still sleeping or in class.. 7 hours of time gap in a LDR is really not easy, but thats why i promised to stay at home more often now. This is the effort i made, I have to tell myself that I have a girlfriend in Swiss, and i'm willing to stay and talk more because she needed it and i needed it too even if she doesnt force me. This is the commitment i've made. I'm not regretting it too. I really pray this 4 years will be over, and trust me if we really have faith, this 4 years is nothing compared to the 20 years i've lived. My first time going to school was when i'm 5 years old. Even its 15 years ago, i still remember it. So the after 4 years from now, it will be over very soon provided we have faith in each other.

I'm really willing to do this and whether u believe or not, I'm still a healthy person, U nv force me to stay at home more.. Its what my instinct tells me to do, yea 'Instincts', if u really didnt notice it, after the quote u left, I finally understand this is my 'instincts' since the beginning. But i think its too late now, things might not go back to the way it was used to be. I juz pray that you can talk to me more now, or at least get better yourself. Juz 28 days to go..

Lets talk more when u wake up afterward, its our Sunday today =)

I really still Love u very much Honey and having u is the best treasure I could find in my Life.

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

Its Saturday, not Sunday yet

Cant really sleep much, guess I'm still me, still think alot... Nothing much gonna happen today =) juz gonna stay at home and study abit for my next week finals, still have 3 papers u know?

So woke up and wrote a very very long email and sent it.. To who u asked? Of coz my beloved Honey lah! I used my very true feeling when i'm writing this Hon, a really pure heart of a Lover. Hope it can reach your heart like it was intended to..

Well, Hon might be abit occupied in today's school trip, there are some kind of exhibition in another town, but Sunday is approaching =) Its been sometime since we had a good conversation together. I hope you'll feel better today.

Well, no matter what i'll do, will still think of u =) Really luv u very very much my Love...

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

Another miserable day

I had a terrible gastric strike yesterday nite... I guess my eating habbit wasnt very good lately, I've totally lost interest in eating already, for the time being i hope. Things wasnt going well when i talk to her this morning around 6.00 a.m. Like usual, we argue a bit she still doesnt feel like talking to me. All i wanted was some1 to reassure me, and got the feeling of people worried bout me. She said she still need more time, more time alone. So i promised her, by giving me a time limit, she promied me that we would definitely talk/skype on Sunday.

I continued my sleep, woke up around 12 p.m. in the afternoon. Then i realise that i couldnt sleep anymore, things juz cant stop coming into my mind. I decided to call rehui up and ask him to accompany me to Low Yat and check on gadgets and drop by KL sentral to get the train tickets. Drove to his house, didnt realise so many people was going too.. CD & Calvin followed my car... Thx guys for making my day, I felt so touched really. Too bad the tickets sold off =(

Reach Low Yat Plaza walk walk around and spent some time and bought a bluetooth handsfree... and to be honest, where ever i go, watever i see and watever i do i cant stop thinking bout Hon. I was suppose to relax my mind and concentrate what i'm suppose to do until Sunday. Keep telling myself need to give her time to relax her mind too. Everything will be better on Sunday and everything will be perfect on the day she return to malaysia(dec 17). It was really a bit too hard for me Hon... Cant stop feeling miserable u know?

But i finally decided to call her later at night to inform her bout the tickets.. I mean i promised to experience this Christmas with her in Singapore. Due to my nature of dragging things, the tickets are sold out... Sigh........ Feel so much beta and really happy that u are willingly to talk to me more like i expected.

I apologising for calling, i know i promised u, but i really feel like telling u bout the tickets.. Well, rest well now my Honey, and enjoy tomorrow's school's trip.. Really wont bother u anymore tomorrow. Luv U very much and willingly to luv u till the day i stop breathing.

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, baby

Another Unnecessary Arguement

I juz called Hon half an hour ago to wake her up for class (Malaysia and Switzerland has a 7 hours different time gap), but things didnt turn out very good again.. She kinda got piss at me for saying the wrg thing. I tried to explain myself but i think she didnt get it and she is piss and dowan to listen me. In the end, the phone call ended with both of us still frustrated. I'm not able to explain myself coz she doesnt wanna listen. I really dont meant it Hon, perhaps i really think too much lately, I really some need time to change like u too...

Most ppl called home their santuary, but to me staying at home for a few weeks already has been driving me crazy, staying at this miserable home alone has gimme nothing but lots of room to think of crazy and useless stuff. Too much has happen in life lately.

The only reason i stayed at home now is because i needed a place to sleep in, a shelter n of coz having my computer and my phone too. Me and Hon used to talk alot on the phone, used to skype on that computer alot too. But things are so different now, Hon no longer wanna sms me and call my phone that much already and she doesnt wanna skype with me either. All she can say is i dowan to talk to u anymore or i dun feel like talking. With these 2 sentences, i feel like i've been cast to death, lifeless, sleeping on that cold bed everyday is the worst feelings i ever felt in my life. Right now i can only pray for the better. For a better tomorrow..

Hon, you've been really grumpy/upset/bad mood.. Your really not like yourself anymore u know? All i can say now is that i really feel really bad for u, thats y i'm alwiz trying my best to talk 2 u now, reassure u and to cheer u up but u are so stubborn, when u say u dowan to talk means u dowan to talk and all i can do is stop talking and endure it.. Can u really see that i'm trying my best here to make u happy? Can u really see that i'm trying my best to be considerate? Can u really see that i'm doing this for 'Us', the both of us. I am not doing this for myself only u know? Do u think that stop talking can really help the 2 of us to get better? I really hope u'll put your anger aside 1st and use your heart to feel how i feel, how we feel, feel what do we need rite now.

Its really just 31 days to go and then when u come back we can hug each other to sleep. U said this yesterday 'Let's do this together, we still have hope' and cant tell u how happy and grateful i felt.. I wont give up this relationship, and i certainly hope u feel the same way.. We still love each other, and believe in each other... And in the end, i believe we will be stronger than b4 =) I really really luv u, really really need u too, and to me our love is really the most important thing in my life now..

From Love, With Love,
Vincent, Baby

November, Emo Month

U know what i think about Long Distance Relationship(LDR)?

1. Must appreaciate each other.

2. When there is a will, there is a way.

3. Have faith and trust each other fully.

4. Remind yourself that u 2 were meant to be together.

5. Think of your love ones when u think u r doing something wrong.

6. If you believe in the future, you'll be able to overcome any obstacle.

7. Communication is the only key to understand each other during this time.

8. Keeping intimacy all the time, remind each other of the sweet moments we used to have.

Me and Hon juz cant get back to the way we used to be. Both of us are really having a very difficult time now. Both of us are too sensitive and emotional and easily get angry and upset over small things. We cant put down what has happened n I tried my best to understand her, but i think i didnt do well. I really wish god could tell me what to do now...

No matter how hard i tried to talk things out with Hon, things juz keep going wrong. No matter how hard i try to comfort her, she juz cant really feel it fully right now. No matter how hard i try and apologise, she juz cant get the whole picture of it.

Its another 32 days to go till we can see each other again. Its another 32 days till we can love each other like we nv love b4. Its another 32 days till we can sleep next to each other holding each other so tight like we nv hug b4. (ITS JUST 32 DAYS TO GO!)

Honey, i just want u to know that i really really luv u and i dun mind what is the past. All i want is a future with u right now, a bright future. Who has never made mistakes in life b4 right? Its really the time to forgive and forget now..

Its all about us now, only us. No1 else can help us Hon. I didnt meant to push u like tat, its not even my intention. I juz hope time can replenish everything and make u feel better. I really treasure this relationship and i know that i cant lose u. So no matter what, i'll try my best to make u feel happier.

Really wanted a chance for the both of us... and i really really luv u my Honey.. i really really need u too..

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Again....

I really got no idea what i've done wrong again, with just a short text msg from her saying she wanna think about what i said juz now so we cant talk today and we'll talk tomorrow...

My mood is really bad, how can i wait for 9 hours like this? I really cant wait anymore, this is soo hard and tiring and bcoz of this i cant concentrate doing anything but keep worrying...

Sigh, Hon is doing this again eventhou she promised me not to...

Shes not picking my calls again now...

1 month and 5 days to go

Hon finally called me...

I really cant stop crying when i got her call, i was soooo worried the whole time cant eat n cant sleep. We talked alot on the phone yesterday night... She finally explained to me what had actually happen...

To her she thinks that i took her for granted, which i nv do that at all. I might sound not very appreciating and not really good at using words, I hope she'll understand tat i would do everything for her n I'm really still waiting for u to come 'home'

To her she also thinks that i dun care of her anymore when shes sick and busy. I really do Hon.. its juz that u cant see my facial emotions, i'm really worried to death.. So many things juz came into my mind, I wish I really could go there rite now n hug soo tight and feel your body warmth during this cold winter weather.

I really pity her sometimes, having a boyfren like me with a really bad temper and sarcasm mouth. When i'm overly worried my anger burst without warning.. I promised to become a better person for You to love but i fail to do so. All i can hope now is that u would gimme another chance to mend the wounds and pains i left behind, i promise to learn from experience and become a better lover for us and our future.

I really hope we talk more like we used to, we love each other like we used to, we comfort each other like we used to, we wait for each other like we used to, we manja each other like we used to....

I know i need you very much and I know i wouldnt let u go until the very day i stop breathing, I hope i can hear u say u love me very much too today... Bcoz i really meant it when i say i love u very much u know? Still 1 month and 5 days to go, really cant wait till the day when i have to go to the airport to fetch u=) To me, nothing is more precious compared to our love....

From Love, With Love
Vincent, Baby

Farewell My Dear Friend

Its been a long long time since i posted in my blog. I kinda 4get i actually owns 1, kinda neglect it for a while. I made a draft bout my Melacca rave party but haven upload the photos into it, will post it anytime this week.

Woke up in the morning waiting for Hon to reply my calls, actually cant sleep at all, I cant stop looking at my clock wondering why is she still not calling me.. I'm getting really worried and crazy now, i've called her many times no1 answer it n still waiting now... I'm soooo sad now its like i cant even gather enuff strength to breath anymore, i Need her So Much!

Sign in to my Hotmail and read sum mails until i came across 1 named quit from Twintech.. Its from Pauvine! Here is the msg she sent us:

To all lovely guys

It wouldn't be suprised to all of you, expected,right? There are a lot of reasons which i can't to continue again. I'll appreciate the times we spend to together(eating,shopping,fighting............)which cannot buy with money, and knowledge which i gained from Twintech.

Edmund - undestanding,helpful,hardworking(in studies only) and cute (because fat-fat ma,a bit handsome only)

Pei Rou - leadership espirit, helpful and sweet girl (always busy with appointment but this sem seems less so can spend some times with us)

Hie Ching - lovely siau cha boo (always take short cut but sometimes cannot short cut ooh)

Eng Lian - sleepy and busy boy (need to spend sometimes in studies,be serious and sensible, you can, right?)

Kai Yun - emotion girl (appreciate what you are today, don't blame this and that.Poor and rich just a "$" sign only,study hard and work hard,you surely can success. I'll keep the "secret" between you and me)

Yan Ching - timid and sweet girl(be brave so that nobody will bully you,talk more and nobody will laugh at you)

Dominic - love your body and take care(you'll be the best fighter and i'll pray for you)

Vincent - busy and "man" boy (try your best in Twintech even though you don't like.You are smart in studies actually,don't disapointed your parent,show them actually you can).

Ai Yii - cute, lovely crazy girl(it's happy to talk to you, always made us laugh like "orang gila, don't mind to be the crown)

Choon Ming - hardworking and 'cool' boy(is the parent's "good boy",almost catch up with the groups,keep it up)

I am not sure what actually happen but now i'm really speechless, another dear friend of us has quit the course.... Being the oldest 1 in the class and the one of the most talketive 1, she never fail to entertain us =) and alwiz represent our class to voice out our opinions. No matter what is it, we will alwiz remember we once had a very nice friend.

A Long Long Trip Full of Problems

I've decided to do a double post today bcoz i have some much to talk about in Juz 1 day!

The connection in Labuan was soooo badly i cant hardly describe it! I wanted to skype or MSN with honey but i was unable to but i still can connect to the internet, called to Streamyx Hotline almost everyday they say they were undergoing sum shit upgrades, call them until the whole company also recognize my voice i guess...

As for not updating my blog, I was quite busy during the Raya, accompany Mum to sum Raya open houses.. All they serve was very colourful steam cakes, rendang curry, and sweet drinks(soft drinks).

The very frightening colourful Raya steamcakes, to me it taste ooooookay only

Get really Sick of all those curry and oily stuff! I was wondering why cant they serve mineral water instead of all sweet things! Damn, i tell u water really taste good sometimes! AND i even get a minor stomachache during the festive season, so no more curry for a long long time! All the effort going to gym was actually waste during this festive season, need to double up the workout time now....

Met up with seng a few times in Labuan, i can say he grow quite a bit =) Not in height but in mentality.. His still the funny guy we love to hang out with and his even got himself a galfren now, Way to Go Seng!

As promised, these are some of Fuji's best shots=) His really cute, i cant stop laughing having a so adorable yet intelligent yet obedient yet cute dog!

Orh! I didnt know its my birthday 2day!

Vincent said i look like a teddy in this picture!

Do I look good with the scarf?

I'm a small dog with a big dream!

I'm ready for bed...

=p

Me and my Favourite bowl

Balik Kampung for Raya

Due to some excuses and lazyness, my blog has been dead for some time, nothing interesting actually happen in my life recently...

If you guys didnt notice, i'm actually back in Labuan for this Raya, back to this small boring island with no good food, no hot chicks, no nightlife , but..... They have CHEAP alcohols and cigarette and chocolates, its like almost half price cheaper! Well, all the unhealthy stuff cant get any cheaper than that right? Too bad i dont smoke and drinking here without my 'buthers' makes it more boring here u know?

But being back home has a different feeling, able to see my parents and siblings that i dont see often, and my dog(fuji) too, dont i really miss him, he still such a notti fella =) Will update the next blog with some pictures of Fuji =)

Some Nite at Chilies!

Went to chillies last week with some friends, i soooo miss the burger and the buffalo wings there, the reason is simple, it taste really gooooood!

Jocelyn is alwiz so excited when there is food =)

Jocelyn and Meiting 2 really sweet gal

Me and Meiting and her 'I love Party' T-shirt, Cute!

Very ego Rehui and Meiting

Every single one of Us!

Me and Hon both love the burgers in Chillies and Fridays, since her departure, I never walk in to any of these restaurant until last week, so miss the feeling! so miss her! so need her! so love her! and so looking forward for her to come back!

One more thing guys, I've finally successfully being forced to join the Califonia Fitness Gym in Sunway Pyramid =( Finally time to lose some weight and time to pump some irons! Anyone wanna work out 2gether can gimme a call yea? As they say the more the merrier!

I guess its time to say bye bye to unhealthy life, becoz here comes healthy life =)

Mooncake Festival

Celebrated one of the Chinese most Loved festival which is the moon cake festival last week! Moon cake really taste soooo good...

The red paper lanterns

A picture of the my class celebrating Mooncake festival 2gether

Another picture of us holding lanterns

If u look carefully, some of us are using 'forks' as sticks for our laterns =)

Homemade Chicken Rice

Its been a long time since i cook, and had the urge to do it now. So i went to the nearest supermarket(Carrefour) and get some ingredients.

I bought:

1. Chicken
2. Chillies
3. Garlic
4. Ginger
5. Cucumber
6. Spring Onions

By telling wat ingredients i've bought, it shud be very clear that I'll be cooking Chicken Rice =)

(After some hardwork and the amount of time to experiment and look at wat I've made!)

Homemade Chicken Rice

Not to be thicked-skin, but it actually taste quite good on my 1st time making it!

Some nite at Mardigras!

Went to this new club in 1U called Mardigras last Saturday with some 'Buther' (means brother in very chinese slang). To my surprise it was really Happening!

A very nice place to wash your hands outside the club...

I luv da Disco balls!

The usual bar table...

Lots of cup....

A very cool Carlsberg bottle..

Look at all the Carlsberg bottle, they even have light effect! Its dem cool

Green changing to Blue!

All Blue now! Cool right?

Deddy and a very sweet gal Kylie.

The most special thing they have is this 'water stage' with chicks dancing till they are really wet!

Bryan and Jocelyn

The Guys

The whole day was quite good but things happen when we all decided to go back to SJ around 3:10, 2 of our frens were involved in a fight with some crazy driver on the road.. They had to go to SJMC and do sum x-rays, bleed much, but arh! thank god, it was not really that serious! We'll b back partying again very soon =)

House Party

Went to Jocelyn's house warming in ss18... had a great nite with my frens! Nv spend so much time 2gether nowadays as each of us are alwiz we r saying 'bz' with our own stuff.. Thru events like this might bring us all 2gether and talk and have fun.

Lastly, Thx for being such a nice host Jocelyn =)

Aint the gals really cute when they are trying to act cute?

The boys that think they are very cool!

The One Big Family!

And the stuff we drink, how can a house warming lack of alcohols rite?

My Merdeka Celebration

Went to Ruums for Merdeka Celebration.. Was quite an interesting nite =) bbbbut too many 'Lalas'

Smoke, Balloons and crowd is all i can see

Woo! Countdown ended, balloons freefalling..

Another random picture =)

Lots and Lots of Ppl Partyyying!

Calvin and Darren with Bryan

The Beauties and the Beasts...